Heliophilia (sweeran adapted)

Chapter 26

Chapter 26:

I’d say what I regret most is putting my feelings before his, for pushing him away because I was broken when I knew all along that all he wanted to do was mend me. And now I was left without anytime left and frightening thoughts of here growing bitter and feeling that he could never be loved rung through my head. But all great loves had a tragic ending, that’s what makes them so great, isn’t it? Or is it what the love contains? Deep loves and shallow loves are shared daily, but why do certain loves get so much hype? The idealistic love like Romeo and Juliet’s is a love people normally expect. Fast, passionate, but they don’t expect the absinthial ending to rip it apart. Everyone expects in Happily Ever After, but the best loves don’t get one; it’s no different from Ed and I.

I stayed up all night worrying, wondering, and crying. I worried about him, how he will cope. How he’ll move on, probably find someone else to love; maybe turn sour and afraid to love. How I won’t be there for him when he comes home from work, to see new haircuts and apartments and clothes he’ll change, to be the reason he smiles in his sleep and laughs in silence. I wondered if he was thinking the same thing, I wondered if he’d accept my definite death. But I didn’t cry for me, I cried for him. As light cracked through the dirty windows that were too high up to look out them, I finally let myself fall asleep for the last time.

"What do you mean you forgot to remove the GPS tracker?!" I hear being yelled from far away as I’m pulled out of sleep. 
“Look, if doesn’t matter. We can just kill her now and leave her for them to find her” 
“This is the PLND Darren, they’re not going to let this one go until they find us” 
“Well what other choice do we have?”
“Sí…we’ll kill her now” Jake sighs. 
“Are you sure they’re on their way?” he continues and I tense. 
“A whole army of them” the other voice groans out and my head snaps towards the door they’re hidden behind. 
“We should do this quickly…where’s that gun you had the other day?” Jake asks and I feel my heart pound in my chest with every word they say. 
“Either out the back or in your car...go check and I’ll search the back” Darren says and I feel my whole body start to shake; I’m going to die. 
I quickly scurry up, ignoring my aching body and pace the room, trying to calm myself. The window was too high to climb out of, the door was too risky and there was nowhere to hide. I hear footsteps from outside the door and I felt my heart jump to my throat, this wasn’t supposed to happen so quickly.
The handle of the door starts to jiggle and the door swings open, but the person standing there was the last person I expected. 
“Ed?” I ask as tears rush to his eyes and he runs towards me. 
“I missed you so much” he breathes out and engulfs me in a bone crushing hug, my whole body shaking in her arms. 
“I thought I’d never see you again” I sob against his shoulder as he strokes my hair. 
“Hey, it’ll be okay, we’re going to be fine” he says and pulls back to look me in the eyes. Keeping a tight hold of me, he moves his hand up to wipe my tears away. 
“Pretty girls shouldn’t cry” he says, and makes a funny face causing me to giggle through my tears. 
“How are you here?” I ask in disbelief as I drink him in, his sad eyes rimmed with dark circles and pale skin. 
“My case supervisor in the PLND told me, and to stay away, but of course I’m going to get you as fast as I can” he chuckles.
“I’m sorry-I’m so sorry, I love you” I sob out and plant kisses all over his face, his cheeks, his chin, his forehead before he pulls me back to look him in the eyes. 
“I’d never let you go that easily” he whispers and our foreheads find each others. 
“N’awh, how sweet is this? Isn’t it sweet Darren?” A voice asks from behind us and I instantly stiffen. 
“It’s fucking adorable” he continues in his snide voice, belittling us as he slowly walks into the room with the gun held up, aimed at us.
“So it turns out the police are outside right now, so we’ve got to get a move on” Darren snarls from beside Jake and I swallow the lump in my throat as I untangle myself from Ed. 
“You could just walk away from all this Jake, you can just walk away and never look back” I try but I see his eyes are like fire and his hands are trembling as he shakes his head. 
“Why would I pass up such an opportunity? Family comes first…but this fucker forgot, and now he’s got to pay” he chuckles out before a deafening ‘bang’ resonates off the walls and I shut my eyes, waiting for the pain, but It never comes.

I open my eyes to see Jake and Darren running out the door. My eyes scan the room and I nearly faint at what I see. Ed is on the floor, clutching his stomach and gasping for air as blood starts to pool and stain the t-shirt he was wearing. 
“Ed” I whimper as I fly down to my knees and grab his hand. 
“HELP! HELP US PLEASE!” I yell out, hoping someone will rescue him. The blood stain grows by the second as his eyes are wild with panic and his breathing is shallow. 
“Edward, Ed baby look at me” I beg as he struggles to keep his eyes open. 
“You’ll be okay, I promise just keep fighting, keep breathing” I beg and he nods his head weakly. 
“Tell me about the trip we’re going to take” I ask, hoping the distraction will keep him conscious. He gulps in air and try’s his best to speak, but I know it’s hurting him.
“You and I…” He starts “in my car…Nothing but us” he gasps out and clutches my hand tighter. 
“And I’ll make you…” he struggles out. “Fall in love with me…over again, everyday” 
“I’ll kiss you…” His eyes fall shut but he’s still breathing heavily. “Under every star…there is” 
“I love you” he whispers before his breathing goes seriously shallow and men in bright jackets burst through the door. More than 20 people were now in my room, swarming around Ed as I was pushed to the side. 
“ED!” I yell desperately as I’m dragged down the stairs by one of them. “Please, I need to be with him!” I scream with desperation in my voice. I kick and scream until I’m hauled into an ambulance and lay down on a stretcher, someone prodding and poking at me as I scream. 
“Taylor?” Someone asks softly from beside me and I turn to meet hazel eyes staring back at me softly. 
“I’m Maria, Ed’s case supervisor. We’re going to bring you to the same hospital as Ed and get you cleaned up, okay?” she asks gently and I slowly relax myself. She seemed nice, and for some reason I didn’t know, I trusted her.

They brought me to the hospital and checked me in. After enduring x-rays and blood transfusions it turns out I had a broken rib and a few other minor wounds, but all I could think about was Ed. The nurses and doctors never answered when I asked about him, shuffling around the topic and turning the conversation back to me. After the first day passed and I was confirmed stable, I was aloud visitors. Sam, of course burst through the doors swearing and cursing the second he could. He stuck to my side for the next three days, and also helped me heckle for information on Ed which no one gave us, but the day he went home to shower and change Maria came to see me.
“How are you doing Taylor?” She asks softly from the chair beside me and I shrug. 
“Physically I’m perfect, I just want to see Ed” I say back and her eyes flicker and she looks to the ground. 
“Taylor, I have some news about Ed” she says slowly and my stomach drops. 
“He’s dead”

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I’m drowning in my own tears.

PS: we still have like 10 or 11 chapters left.