i smoke to die. // djh + pml

fourteen / / i'll give you a surprise.

sometimes people are beautiful
not in looks
not in what they say
just in what they are

Dan

we arrive at the local ice skating place, i'm pretty scared because i suck at skating in general, every time i go roller skating i fall on my bum, so ice skating is going to be much worse.

luckily, we're the only ones here, people don't usually come until it's night, but, i'm glad, that way i'll only embarrass myself in front of two people instead of like 50.

me, phil, and troye all get our ice skates, i see troye standing up and starting to go into the ice rink, "if you need any help, just yell for me!", he enters the rink and starts skating as if he's a professional, of course he's good at this, he's good at everything.

phil finally got his skates on and when he stands up he starts wobbling a bit, which i can't help but laugh. "hey! you try standing up and see how it feels!" alright, can't be that bad, right?

i put on the skates and holy shit, i was wrong, this was a bad idea, i am going to die today.

i try to stand up but i can't, and it doesn't help that i'm scared to fall so phil notices and pulls me up.

as we walk to the rink he intertwined his fingers with mine, then looks at me "if you fall, i fall, alright?" i nod in response.

we enter the rink and i hold onto the edge for my dear life, i'm never letting go. this is so much worse than roller skating!!

phil tries to skate without holding anything but my hand, he and i take baby steps, even though i'm somehow clumsier than him in this situation and keep on losing my balance, luckily i'm still holding onto the edge, i'm probably never letting go.

troye then passes by us, with no trouble of course and laughs at us "you guys are too cute!" i roll my eyes, of course he makes it looks easier than it actually is.

"hey, dan"

"yeah?"

"i'm gonna let go, i just wanna see if i can skate or not. if i fail, you can laugh at me when i fall"

i was hesitating at first since he was gonna let me go but then i agree in case i see him fall. "alright, come back though"

phil tries to skate by himself, he manages to go to the other half of the rink and come back, not falling, but he obviously was still struggling.

"come on, dan! it's fun if you let lose!" i shake my head, i know i'm gonna fall.

"will you come if i hold your hand?" i nod guiltily.

he intertwined his fingers with mine again, and he starts skating, me following, but, as he's getting used to it i just feel like i'm pulling him back because i'm slow and don't know how to step right, i get frustrated and he notices.

"hey, you're doing great, isn't this fun?" i simply shrug, i'm not exactly having the best time.

he thinks for a moment, then says "hey, if you have fun and try a little bit harder to have fun, i'll give you a surprise"

i'm intrigued, but i don't really want to in this situation "i don't like surprises" i mumble, looking down.

he lifts my chin up, eyes locked, our faces are so close, my breathing gets faster and i start to get red, and i can't look away now so he knows how he makes me feel "i promise you'll like this one, don't you trust me?"

i nod, he smiles afterwards, then takes my hand and we start skating again.

i do as he told me to and try to loosen up, i fasten my movements to catch up to his speed, then we're both skating in sync.

okay, this is pretty fun, i can't help but smile, i look at him and he looks at me, we're both happy and smiling. but i wish i would've concentrated on skating instead of his beautiful smile.

because, in that moment, i lost my balance and you guessed it, i fell, pulling phil down with me, it all happened so quickly, when we both fell we let go of each other so our fall wouldn't hurt that much if we put our hands in.

the thing is, i fell back, on my bum, but, phil somehow managed to fall on top of me, so, i was flat against my back while he was on me, his legs in between mine and his hands beside my head.

we were face to face, breathing heavily, and as we locked eyes and stared at each other for what seemed like forever, we both started laughing like we never have before.

"did you have fun?" phil asks smiling.

still laughing, i answer "yes, phil! this was the most fun i've ever had!"

he smiles widely, "then, i guess i can give you your surprise now"

confused, i start watching his actions more carefully, i see that his eyes have a certain shine to them right now, he starts leaning in, oh, god, he's not going to kiss me is he?!, then, he stops leaning in when our noses are touching, my heart is already beating so fast and my breathing is very hard, and looks at me one last time.

he closes his eyes and then i close mine, i feel his smooth, plump, lips on mine, and our lips start moving in sync, our kiss intensifies and i'm now putting my hands on his cheeks, he then decides to take it to the next level and licks my bottom lip, asking for entrance, i shyly open my mouth slightly, not knowing what to do, then, his tongue finds mine and they start moving together, him exploring my mouth and me exploring his, our tongues fighting for dominance but of course, he ends up winning as his touch makes me weak, and we continue like that for a while until we both can't breathe anymore.

we pull away, i keep my eyes closed just for a moment, i can't help but replay it in my head and think that it felt so good, i bite my lip, and when i open my eyes, phil is already staring at me, we keep our eyes locked without saying a word.

and even though we're just staring into each other's eyes, we can't help but smile as big as we can.

i think i'm falling for phil lester.

a/n

1110 words. honestly this was probably one of my favorite chapters to write, i really liked how it turned out but awww what did you guys think of it? you know what to do!

xx

12-29-16