i smoke to die. // djh + pml

twenty three / / your voice was very... demanding.

when i talk to you i can
feel a connection.
i don't know how to describe it,
i've never felt it with anyone
before so it's very
unfamiliar to me.
but i feel safe, i feel cozy,
i feel needed.
i'm comfortable with you
because you understand me
and my past.
when i'm with you,
i feel like i'm at home.

Dan

we continued to walk for about 10 minutes, talking the whole time.

phil lets go of my hand and walks along, he motions his hand for me to go over there with him.

once i catch up to him, he shows me the view. "this is the lake, it's not contaminated or dangerous, so, we could go swimming in there"

i look over at the lake and i didn't think lakes could be this beautiful, almost as blue as phil's eyes.

"phil this is, wow, i didn't think this place could get anymore beautiful"

"i know, and there's still so much more to explore"

i get closer to the lake and crouch down, feeling the water on my fingertips.

"we can go swimming now if you'd like, dan"

"i-but we didn't bring any swimming trunks"

"we don't need any! we can just take off all our clothes!" i blush.

"i-i don't want t-to do t-that"

"oh fine, then we can just swim in our boxers, is that alright with you?"

i look down. i'm very self conscious of my body.

i didn't even notice tears were streaming down my face until phil wiped them off.

"hey, don't worry, you're beautiful. you have nothing to be ashamed about, i love you just the way you are, i won't judge you, in fact, i'll try to make you love the things you hate about yourself, just like i do" he gets closer to me and hugs me.

i hug back immediately, "thank you, phil" he pulls away, looking me straight in the eyes, and then starts leaning in and kisses me, softly.

"oh, i forgot to mention, there's a cliff, we can jump from there into the lake, it's actually quite fun than just walking inside the water, want to do it, or another day?"

"is it safe?"

"of course it is! i've jumped off many times and i'm still alive!"

"yeah, alright"

"i'll race you there!"

"phil, you're going to slip and hit yourself in the head"

"no i won't!"

"phil."

"you're just saying that because i run faster than you"

"but, i also care about your wellbeing!"

"if that's your way of saying you don't like losing well, alright then"