i smoke to die. // djh + pml

eight / / my point of view.

we judge people for judging people because we think judging people is wrong

Dan

the time for lunch break is here, i search for troye in the patio outside, i see a bunch of people huddled around a table, i go look, and, as i expected, it's because of troye.

he seems happy, so i just turn around and start to walk to my normal spot (the library) "dan! come here" i yell troye shout. i cant help but smile a bit.

but, as i turn around, everyone is looking at me, you guessed it, with disgusted faces or 'why is he inviting YOU here' faces, i instantly feel embarrassed and start to regret the idea. i walk slowly to the table.

troye is smiling, he's sitting next to phil, why is phil here?

"um, cat, could you scoot over so dan can sit next to me?" phil says.

cat shoots me an evil glare, i think she wants to kill me "sure" she grits her teeth and tries to fake a smile while saying that.

everyone is quiet and staring me down as i sit next to phil, i immediately blush and look down.

phil gets closer to me and whispers "just ignore them, you're better than all of them".

i blush even harder than before.

"well, it was nice chatting with you all, but i have to catch up with my best mate, yeah?" troye says to all his 'followers' or as i'd like to call them, ignorant people.

i can tell they're all annoyed now. they continue to make bad faces and they all leave, except phil of course.

"s-so troye, you wanted me to tell you what happened in the morning.." i say hesitating since phil is there.

"it's alright, champ, you don't have to tell me, phil already told me everything that happened today"

"well, i don't know what phil told you but you haven't heard my point of view." i say angrily, i can't believe phil told MY best friend about MY business, i'm supposed to tell him, not someone else.

troye notices my distress and frowns "sorry, champ, you're right, go on".

i look at phil "but..".

phil notices me staring at him, knowing the reason why i don't wanna say "i wanna hear your point of view as well, dan. but if it makes you more comfortable without me then i'll leave" he says with a shy smile.

why is he so sweet, ugh. "erm, well, i was smoking behind the school, then i see pj and phil walking up to me so i leave but then phil calls me back and asks me why i'm behind the school and that he didn't know that i smoked and then pj, of course, starts calling me a suicidal faggot and you know how i feel when people start saying stuff like that.. even if it's true.." phil widens his eyes at hearing the last part, and troye nods as he already understands.

i sigh, troye patting my back for reassurance, so, i continue on to the next part "and then i went to the bathroom to calm down and you know that part of the story, so afterwards i went straight to my first class, english, after contemplating if i should skip class to avoid phil or not but then i realized phil would probably just look for me at lunch and i mean he's here right now so it proves my case even more-" phil looks down, i feel guilty for sharing that but i had to, for troye. "-anyway so i decided not to so i went to class, my spot and just put my head down hoping no one will notice me or bother me but then joe and marcus came up to me and started saying how pj told them about what he had seen with me earlier so of course they started insulting me and calling me a suicidal queer and all that once again, so i got fed up and accidentally told them to go be assholes somewhere else.."