Letting go

Chapter Twenty Four

Harper's pov

"Harper why didn't you tell me?" Harry asked from outside my door.

"Can you just please go away?" I asked as the tears ran freely down my cheeks.

After what had happened this morning I was tired and just wanted to be left alone. My brother had found out about all the bets that were happening within his football team, the stuff people thought and said about me that I had tried so hard to forget, and that his twin sister was not who he thought she was.

"No Harper. I want to know why," He said begging me to tell him.

"Because I didn't want to bother you with my problems," I said trying to calm myself down.

"Why would you think you were bothering me with your problems. Harper you're my twin sister, we help each other," He said making me think more.

I didn't reply I just got up off the floor and unlocked my door. As soon as the door was opened Harry engulfed me in a hug.

"Please don't ever do that again," He said after releasing me.

"Stop acting like a bitch would you," A random girl yelled.

"She's just talking to her friends, Bridget lay off," Harry said shutting her up.

I dumped my tray of food and left the diner without another word. I ran to my car and drove home as quick as I could. Once I was home I threw my bag down and ran up the tall stairs. I ran into my room and slammed the door closed. I walked sloppily to the bathroom and took out a razor blade I had stashed in there. Without another thought I took the blade down and slashed open my skin. No one knew the pain I was going through. Cutting gave me the peace I so desperately wanted. I keep cutting till my wrists were dripping blood. I layed on the cold tile and just let my mind wonder.

"HARPER LET ME IN," Harry yelled from outside my door.

"Go away. I want to be alone," I yelled back as the banging continued.

"Harper please let us in," Harmony pleaded as tears fell down.

"Please go. I'll be down for dinner," I yelled wiping away the tears and got up.

I slowly cleaned off my arms and scrubbed the floor where the blood had dripped. I changed out of my bloody clothes before walking down the hall and down the stairs. I joined my family for dinner as if everything was normal, but it wasn't. Mom and dad were fighting non stop now a days, Harmony is always off with Hunter her boyfriend, and Harry was always gone leaving me alone. When I was alone my mind liked to wander and I was so afraid of that.

"Do you think she'll make it doctor?" Someone asked pulling me from my flash backs.

"It's hard to tell. She's been on life support for a few days now and we're not seeing any change," Another voice said as I slowly opened my eyes.

The room was all too bright for my eyes till they adjusted. I looked around the room to see Brian, Missy, Elle, Jay, Colin, and Katie all gathered around the bed. There was what looked like a doctor standing closest to my bed talking to them.

"Where is Jackson?" I choked out getting their attention.

"Harper you're awake," Elle said rushing over to me.

"Yeah. Now where's Jackson?" I asked looking around the room for him.

None of them replied just looked around at each other, thinking of what to say.

"Harper he left two days ago on a plane," Jay spoke up.

"Where to?" I asked with a worried expression covering my face.

"America," Katie said looking down.

"For how long?" I questioned.

"He didn't say," Brian said making a few tears slide down my face.

I just sat in shock that the man I loved left and didn't stay to see me wake up or be with me. I hadn't realized Brian and the others had left till the doctor came in. He asked me some questions about me and then the police came in and questioned me about the whole Hunter incident. While talking about what happened I had horrible flashbacks where I would start shaking uncontrollably and my face would lose all color. The officers would lay me down and talk me out of the thought. Once they were done the doctor came in again and prescribed therapy and a support group to help me threw the trauma I went through. He keep me in for a few days of testing before sending me home.

"Are you ready yo go?" Elle asked walking into the room.

"Yeah I think so," I replied looking around the room one more time to see if I left anything.

Me and Elle walked side by side out of the hospital and to her car. Elle drove me to mine and Jackson's apartment before leaving. I unlocked the door and walked inside. I felt so empty without Jackson here. I walked up to my room before flopping on my bed.I let my mind wander back to when I used to cut. The feeling of satisfaction it gave me. Something took over me as I walked swiftly to the bathroom and pulled out something sharp. It glided over my scarred wrists with such grace and precision. The blood dripped onto the floor probably leaving a stain. I slowly got up from the floor and cleaned up my arm before laying on my bed. After a while I slowly fell into a deep sorrowful sleep.