SAFE

Just like before

Alissa's pov

Why do i have to be this way, Why can't I just be happy? Why can't I make myself happy? I hate it so much, I hate myself so much. Why can't I fucking stop? Because I won't let you! I hear the girl in my head, NO STOP Never you fat cow! It can't be like this I won't let it 

Luke's Pov

Alissa looks like a ghost she looks all white and pale. 

Luke- What's the matter? Are you okay?

Alissa- Yes I'm fine, I just feel sick that's all

I know she's lying I could always tell, I wish i could make her feel better but I don't what to do. I pull  Alissa close as i feel her start to cry. 

Luke-Alissa I'm here, please let me help you 

Alissa- No I don't want to hurt you 

Luke- what if I want to be hurt by you?

we both laugh 

Alissa- Don't say that it's not fun I'll scar you and your life I only cause problems 

Luke-Try me your my best friend That's your job to scar my life good or bad, Your probelms are my probelms

Alissa's Pov 

I feel as if nothing ever changed between me and Luke, I just wish that would have been there when my father past away. I wish I could stop cutting but it's a part of me, and the truth is I don't think Luke or the boys could stop me this time. We get up from the and go to the front room, as we walk in I see all of the boys wide awake staring at me . 

Alissa- Stop fucking staring you guys know I hate that! 

The boys all laugh and jump up to hug me making sure to avoid my arm. I look as their smiles turn to frowns, and I remember why I'm here because they know I cut myself 

Alissa- i-I'm sorry 

Beau- Don't be sorry we are here for you  

Jai- We'll always be here for you 

James- No matter how much we fucking annoy you

Skip- No matter how pissed I make you 

We all laugh and look around at each other

 I sit down with the boys and try to make it less awkward, I smile and run my hand through my hair 

Alissa- so how have you guys been 

Luke- Kind of busy but we knew it was time for a break 

Jai- Yes a break 

Alissa- And what's that supposed to mean?

Skip- Oh nothing just know we are going to take care of you 

James- Yes take care of you 
 

As James said this the boys came close to me and they picked me up 

Alissa- Put me down, NOW!

Luke-No, not yet 

Beau-Stop moving, we'er almost there

The boys push me in the car and they all get in. 

Alissa-where are we going?

Skip- you have to wait to find out! 

I pout in my seat as I wonder when the boys are taking me. I hate this feeling I look out the windows and see grassy land It's a park. I start to smile as i hear the boys laugh. It's the park where we first met. 

Alissa-Omg!!! Are we really here, Luke I can't believe this 

Luke-I thought you might like this

Alissa- Like it no I love it 

I almost start to cry as we get out the car and i run around like a little kid . I remember the day we met at this park. It was spring and my dad took me to this park I was about 8 years old. No one would play with me,but then I saw Luke, Jai and Beau. They played with me and  day after day I would meet up with them almost everyday in spring for a few years. Then when mom and dad started to fight a lot we stop coming to the park. But then I met Luke and Jai in school and we never left each others side no matter what. 

Luke- Please don't cry 

Alissa- I can't help it 

Jai- yea we know your just a big baby 

Alissa- yes just a big baby 

We all hug, then I start to run around and go to the swings. 

Alissa- LUKE!! PUSH ME!!!

Luke- Fine 

Luke runs over with the others and Jai and skip fight for the other swing. We all laugh as I'm pushed into the air. I feel just like a little kid it's amazing this feeling I love it. The boys let me play around until I get tired and we drive back home.

Lukes pov
Alissa falls asleep on me in the car, I saw her smile truly it makes me so very happy to see her smile. I feel her heart beat as she holds me tighter. The boys all look and laugh at me as I start to blush.

Beau- You really missed her didn't you 

Luke- Yes very much

I start to cry just a little, not wanting to wake Alissa. 

Jai- do you think we can save her?

James- Like really save her?

Beau- I don't know shes fallen so far

Skip- But we can get her back right Luke?

I stare at Alissa as I cry softly, I  run my hands through her hair 

Luke- I don't know, I just want it to be Just like before