SAFE

Will she be okay?

Lukes pov 

I pick up Alissa and take her into the house, she needed this day and I'm happy I could give it to her. As I take Alissa in I see tears come out her eyes. I lay her down as she starts to scream. "STOP PLEASE NO" I pull her close as she tries to push me away.

Luke-Alissa wake up, Whats wrong?

Alissa wakes up as she cries into me.

Alissa- i-I'm sorry

Luke-Don't be whats wrong?

Alissa- I can't talk about it 

She curls into a ball as I hear her softy sob

Alissa- Please leave me be 

I walk out the room, Alissa needs sometime I know that I turn around at the door and tell her "i love you remember that"

Alissa's pov

I know I shouldn't push Luke away but I can't get to deep into this I can't let him have our old friendship but. I don't want to hurt anymore, I did have fun when we went to the park but , I don't want to share my whole past. I can't do it .  I won't. But I have to. The thought of losing Luke and the boy again is driving me insane. Why can't I just let Luke make me happy, Why can't i love them as they love me? Because I won't let you! now be a good girl and go slit your wrist 

No I won't Luke and the boys care for me, I won't hurt them like this  They don't care their just taking pity on you. You're a fat cunt NOW go slit your wrist!  Fine I'll do it just leave me alone  Now that's a good girl! 

I run out the room and go to the bathroom and search for something I could cut with. I find an old shaver I throw it to the floor to break out the blade. I grab it from the floor and stare at mt wrist look at my not so fresh cuts and hold the blade to my wrist DO IT! NOW!  I push the blade across my skin I feel the warm blood drip I cry as I laugh and smile i hear the knocks on the door as I pass out I hear a large pound  on the door. Then I feel hands on my waist I hear someone screaming my name 

Alissa! Alissa! No PLEASE! WAKE UP -WAKE UP!

I open my eyes as I see someone wrapping up my arm I look and see Luke crying tears down his face.

Lukes pov 

I found Alissa in the bathroom bleeding, She cut again and I feel as if it's my fault. If I would have just been there for her when she needed me most. I picked her up and called our personal Doctor he wraps up her arm as I cry I see her eyes open. I come close to her 

Luke- Why? Why Alissa? What did I do?

Alissa- You didn't do anything 

Luke- Then why couldn't I stop you 

Alissa- You want to save me, But can't you see you can never save Me from Me 

I look into her eyes as she passes out I start to cry more

Dr.- She needs rest she should wake up in a day or two if not call me. 

Luke- Okay

This boys walk in the room as I just sit there and cry

Beau-Luke she'll be okay

Jai-Yea don't sweat it

Luke- I have to......... I love her 

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I go out to take a shower it will be the first one in two days i haven't even been able to eat knowing Alissa is hurt. She still didn't wake up but I won't leave her alone. I call Jai into the room and he lays with her.

Luke- Thanks for doing this 

Jai- No problem You know we all love her 

I walk out the room and go to take a long well needed shower

Jai's pov 

I lay next to Alissa as Luke walks out I wish he could know that we all truly love Alissa some more than others. I don't know how I feel but I think I want Alissa more than a Friend and I know the other boys feel the same. I don't know if we all want her or if we want to help her and find a love in it. We  were all very close to her and I guess we all just want that again. I feel Alissa move as she comes close to me and says my name. She could always tell the difference between me and Luke. 

Alissa- Jai! Jai come here!

She grabs me and pulls me close Luke walks in as she jumps up and hugs him. I enjoyed that moment with Alissa but I know I'll never be the one she picks. I walk out the room as I see Luke smile, I love to see him happy but I hate that my pain comes with his happiness