Stay With Me (TMNT) Raphael FanFiction

Doubts Ch. 18

Leo's POV

It was a dead tie. Raph and I voted Karai while Mikey and Donnie choose Katrina. 

"Well, I guess I'll make the final decision. I say she kills you." Karai softly kicked Katrina who was laying in a puddle of tears and snot from crying. 

Why was she crying? She wasn't the one having to die.

"Get up girl. You will kill them or I will kill them and make you watch." 

My brother's lover's face took on a dark expression. 

"Give me my bow then." She stood slowly not looking at Raphael but at me, or almost like she was looking past me. 

Karai gave her the bow with four arrows. "If you miss you will have to slit their throats."

"Understood."

Drawing back she directed the first blow at me. No sadness on her face whatsoever, no doubt, no guilt, just determination. The arrow narrowly flew past the side of my head. The arrow went deep into the wall. Was there a hole there? There was no way even with all her force an arrow could go that deep.

Karai began to glitch? Fading in and out. 

"How?! How did you know?!" 

Ignoring the screaming Karai, Katrina took our weapons from the corner of the wall as the ropes holding us faded along with the rest of the room. 

"Let's get out of here. This one isn't a dream but a hologram." 

Katrina's POV

The boys put their weapons back onto their bodies as Donnie and I searched for the exit. "Did you know?" I asked him softly, "Not at first. How did you know?"

"Karai's hair has really bad split ends. This Karai didn't." 

Donnie chuckled, "You noticed her hair?" 

"I notice a lot of small things about people. Also, you all are strong enough to break real ropes. You couldn't break those." 

"Found it." Donnie kicked the door to the room wide leading us out to a hallway filled with Foot soldier. 

I walked up to stand next to Raph. "Are you okay?" 

He shook his head, "Later."

"Okay."

After tearing down multiple Foot we found "Shredder" again. I hoped it wasn't a trick again.

Karai narrowed her eyes at me, I wouldn't kill her for sure but she definitely would feel my pain after burning my fucking hand. 

The fight seemed to last hours, each of us switching who we were fighting and with whom. I imagined to dislocate Karai's arms and break both of her knees. It turned out to be Mikey to take the final blow onto Shredder.

The dust settled and we regained our breath. "Where's Master Splinter?" 

Leo's eyes went wide and turned to Donnie who was looking at the iPad on his arm. "He's in the lair I'm guessing he's fine. Guys, it's been three days." 

"Well then let's hurry up and go home."

Finding a way out of the underground lair the looked like a spaceship was hard enough, but getting home when we were all dehydrated, hungry, and wounded was harder. 

None of us spoke, not a single word. 

"How is your arm?" Donnie fell back to my pace barely touching my burnt arm. 

"It hurts, I'll clean it well once we get back home." 

"I can clean it now if you want." 

"Okay do you worst."

He sprayed some disinfected over the area, it stung badly of course. 

"I can't wrap it. It's-"

"It's gotta heal up itself, yeah I know." I just snapped at him, taking a deep breath I apologized.

"No I'm sorry, I got you into all of this. I called you to help us. I was just scared, we had never gotten that sick before." Was he crying?

Raphael grunted from behind us, I glanced at him but he looked ahead. 

I had no energy to deal with him. Once we were back at the lair and the boys had their little tears of joys with their father I slipped out the room and pack the stuff I had in Raphael's room.

"Where the hell do you think you're going?"

The booming voice didn't scare me as hard as he did try to. "Home."

"This is your home."

"No this is your home I'm only living here."

He grabbed me quickly and took me into a tight hug and the sobs rolled out. 

"I'm sorry! I was so worried I had lost you! I almost lost you, you almost had to kill me. You didn't look at me...... It's as if you don't love me....."

I pushed away from him at his audacity to say such a thing.

"As if I don't love you?! I keep nearly dying for you and your family just because I love you! Do you see what they did to me?!" I rose my red and bubbled arm up to his face. 

"I defended you and your family even after they tortured me! This is real! And you think I don't fucking love you?! How dare you."

The tears came harder down his face as he looked away from me. "What did you want me to do Raph? Look at you and try to tell you everything was okay when I was in pain, I was doubting, I couldn't look at you because I couldn't even look at myself!"

His eyes were the dullest golden I've ever seen them, he was just as hurt as I was, but the hurt was in his heart.

I sighed, "We will talk tomorrow. You need to rest."

"Now where are you going?" He almost looked scared that I wouldn't come back.

"To disinfect this thing. It won't heal unless it's clean."

Donnie was in his lab with his head in his hands. I walked up to him and rubbed the back of his shell. "You doing okay?"

He shook his head, "I just don't know what to do now."

"Get some rest then." 

He rubbed his eyes putting his glasses back on and left me in the lab by myself to clean my own wound. 

What was I doing here? Was love supposed to get you nearly killed every once in a while? Was it worth it? 

'No stop thinking that way.'

I slept on the floor last night. With my thoughts questioning me and Raphael's relationship it was hard to even look in his direction and I felt even worse for that.