How Could They Not
Why has this happened? This is the worst thing that could happen to me.
Why?
I can't do it, I can't make myself.
Why him?
I am certain, my expression resembles a small animal in front of a car.
Why me?
A numbness spreads up my arms, and between my shoulder blades.
They all know.
I can't move, I can't make myself.
Why?
What is wrong with my joints? Weren't they there before?
I can't.
I must, she says I must, but I am just a cardboard cut out.
It's so hard, so hard to make myself go over there.
So hard to approach him.
Has anyone noticed?
Does anyone realize?
My heart, hasn't been beating,
Seized with terror.
They're all watching, but,
They don't care.
They are watching you.
No they're not
They're judging you
But they don't care.
Waiting for you to prove them right
They don't even know
But you do.
