Unattainable
I can't move past it, reminders plague everyday life.
Try to move forward, but the chain binds me to an unforgiving stake.
Straining round and round in countless circles,
A vicious cycle of tearing myself down and building back up from the ashes.
My mood will change constantly, day to day, week to week.
The ensuing moods, are unpredictable.
But it seems to happen so subtly,
That I don't realize it until I find myself
drowning in a sea of repressed emotions.
Struggling, gasping for air, but,
only drawing enough to keep myself on the brink of consciousness.
I can't get a foot hold, I can't stop falling.
I know eventually, I won't have the strength to keep my head up,
And if I don't escape soon,
If salvation doesn't arrive...
But I'm still chained to that stake,
And the key to the lock,
And the hopes of evading this crushing grasp,
Have moved far away.
Just out of reach.
