Of Monsters and Men (yuri x otabek)

Apologies

"Yuri, extend your left leg!"

"Push harder off of your right foot!"

"What kind of axel is that!"

"Your lutz is sloppy!"

I collapse hard on my knees onto the ice, panting loudly."I-I'm sorry Yakov, I-I don't know what's wrong with me today." I speak through gasps.

He crosses his arms and looks down at me. "Have you even been practising? You're executing all of your moves like an amateur!"

"I-I have been practising! I just, I don't know." This is so embarrassing, I can feel everybody's eyes on me, they probably think I'm pathetic. Otabek-I glance up, he's watching me from beside Mila who's giving me a wary look. Anja looks surprised, I'm just happy that Viktor left a while ago, I wouldn't want him to see me like this.

"Get up Yuri, I think you need a break."

I struggle to stand up, wiping my mouth with the back of my hand. Fuck, I can't believe this is happening. It's all his fault, why did he have to tell me that shit before practice started? I stumble off of the ice and sit down, putting my face into my hands. I think I'm gonna throw up, but I'm too exhausted to even try.

I look up and see the other skaters following through with Yakov's training routine perfectly, even Anja who literally just got here. I can see the way he's looking at her, he loves everything that she does. He used to look at me that way.

"This isn't fair." I mutter. Why am I doing so bad? I-I can't fail at skating, this is the only thing I'm good at! If I don't have skating, I don't have anything!

I start breathing heavily, why do the walls feel like they're closing in on me? I can't breathe, was it always so hot in here? Fuck I can't breathe! Am I dying? I-I need to get out of here. My vision becomes cloudy as I yank my skates off of my feet. I need to go home, I can't do this right now. But if I leave, that means I'm running away, if I run away can I really come back? My mind is saying one thing while my body is doing another, fuck, I feel so sick. Shit, no-

"Heuurgh!" This morning's tuna comes flying out from my mouth and onto the carpet.

"Yuri! My carpets!" I hear Yakov shout angrily at me but I'm barely listening.

I can't breathe, my legs give out from underneath me and I collapse onto the floor.

"Yuri, are you OK!" I hear Mila scream. Everything around me is going black.

"Yuri," I hear his voice, he's really close. His hand touches my forehead, it's really warm, feels nice. "He's really hot, someone call 911."

His voice is the last thing I hear before I pass out.

**

"I think he's waking up,"

My eyes feel heavy as I open them slowly. There's a bad taste in my mouth, my body is numb, I can barely move. Where the hell am I?

"Hey, Yuri? It's Mila, we're at the hospital right now, are you feeling OK?" A voice asks softly.

I turn my head slowly and focus in on her, she's really blurry. "Y-Yeah," Is all I can say.

She sighs. "Thank God, you scared the hell out of me. The doctor said you have a fever and that you're suffering from exhaustion, you need to rest. You're grandpa is on his way too."

I try to sit up. "I can't rest, I-"

A firm hand pushes down on my shoulder, forcing me back into the bed. "Stop, you can barely walk." It's Otabek, I look at him with a frown but obey his orders.