Of Monsters and Men (yuri x otabek)

After

A/N: This is just an extra chapter in Otabek's POV (I'm prob gonna upload two more extra chapters about Mila and Anja - in their POV's - telling what happened to them after five years) showing what happened to him after he and Yuri had to part ways (In the chapter called "Together")

I hope you enjoy thanks for reading!!

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"You asshole I can't believe you would do this to me!" Mila screams at me.

I can barely hear her. All I can think about is Yuri. I tried to stay strong for him back there in the parking lot, but having to leave him; it's killing me. I feel like my insides are being torn to shreds, I'm still crying so much I can barely see.

I dropped him off back at his house, having to sit there, helpless, useless, watching him walk away from me. I hate myself so much for letting him go, but it was his decision, this is what he wanted. He's not ready to be with me; I just have to accept that.

No matter how much it fucking hurts.

"I'm sorry Mila, I'm sorry, I'm not in love with you, I'm sorry." The words somehow come out of my mouth. "I'm in love with him, I'm sorry."

She sobs. "Stop apologizing! You don't have the right to be sorry you bastard! I, I hate you, I hate you,"

I cry harder. God, I hate myself too, I hate myself so much.

"Get out, just leave, just get the fuck out of here."

I leave. Don't know where I'm going, but I'm walking somewhere, anywhere. Just want to escape from this pain. I had him, I had him, he was right fucking here. Why is he gone? Why did I let him leave me again?

I have nothing now.

Mila hates me.

The only thing I have left is-

My home.

My home that I've been running away from for two years now. I need to go back there. I told Yuri when we were both stronger we could come back together, I'm not strong right now, but I know that if I face what I've been trying to escape from for so long-I will be. Right?

I just need to find my mom.

I, I need to do something; anything.

Staying here won't help me.

A few hours later I go back to the house, Mila is passed out in the room, she's still in her skating clothes, her hair is a mess, cheeks flushed and stained with tears.

I wipe a strand of hair out of her eyes and kiss her forehead lightly, then I quietly pack up my belongings, as much as I can carry, and leave again.

When I arrive at the hotel, I sit down and call Yuri. I want him to know what I'm doing, that even though I'm leaving for now, there's no doubt in my mind that I'm going to come back to him later.

"Otabek?" His voice sounds weak and surprised.

"Sorry for calling you, but, I'm going back to Kazakhstan. There's a few things I need to figure out there. I just wanted to let you know that." I reply, soaking in his presence across the line.

"OK." His voice cracks and he sniffs.

"I thought I told you to stop crying babe." I whisper.

"I-I'm trying to, I'm sorry."