Running from the Sunrise ||#Wattys2017

Chapter Two

I walked through the doors of my high school, and muttered "Nice to see you again Skyview high." Sarcastically to myself. My friends were approaching me now "Skylar!!!" They shouted as they ran towards me. "Good to see you guys too", I atempted a genuine polite smile. I'm pretty sure I failed at it though because Rebecca my best friend out of our group gave me a worried look. She pulled me aside and asked "Sky what's wrong?" She tried to comfort me and was genuine about it. I replied with a casual "Nothing Becca, I'm just tired." I'm not sure if she believed me or just decided to drop the subject but she just nodded her head and we returned to the group. Rebecca was one of the most popular girls at school, she was pretty. Rebecca had light brown eyes and tan skin that everyone wished they had and she had very dark brown hair. I always wished I looked like her but instead of her brown eyes, mine were a luminous green that I hated. My hair was brown with a tint of red, and I had pasty pale skin. Everyone said I was a total babe because of my eyes, hair, skin and that I was slender with a butt.

"How have you been?" Alec and Olive said at the same time. "I've been good I guess, just trying to figure my life out. I honestly have no clue how I have managed to live so long with them gone. I still feel empty and hollow." I replied giving a true answer for the first time in a while. Usually everything I said was a lie because no one needed to know the truth except for me. Sometimes I let my friends through the wall that I had built around myself to keep me safe. Olive and Alec pulled me in to a group hug trying to comfort me. After a few minutes of remaining that way Alec pulled away saying "I will see you guys later, have to get to class. I want to keep my grades up so I don't get kicked off of the football team". "See ya at lunch..." we all said at the same time. Then we all giggled about saying something at the same time.

I honestly wanted to be happy but I couldn't. If I was ever happy again I feel like I would betray them because they could never be happy again. Maybe they would want me to find a love like they had, but I don't think I would ever be ready for that. "At lunch I have to tell you guys something, but right now I need to get to class." I told the girls that stayed by my side no matter what stupid crap I got my ass into. They nodded their heads and we said goodbye.

As I was walking to class I heard two guys standing by the lockers say "Look there goes the orphan girl." His friend replied by saying "Yeah I heard her parents died on her birthday, that must suck. I also heard that she has been mentally unstable ever since the accident." These rumors didn't bother me anymore because they were more than that they were true. I didn't even deny them if someone walked up to me and asked about it. Sure I felt pain talking about the accident with strangers but I learned to shut down. I never felt anything except pain. I wish I wasn't this way. But it is how I need to be it doesn't matter what I want. I needed to shut myself down so that is exactly what I did. I liked the new me, the emotionless me. I had changed I shut everyone out except for my friends, I don't know why but somehow they are always able to pass through the wall that was built around me.