Running from the Sunrise ||#Wattys2017

Chapter Four

I was walking down the hall on the way to the cafeteria. It was the time to ask my friends about the road trip. Which to some people it would be easy to do but if you suffered from depression and anxiety, it was a lot harder even though I was pretending to be normal. 1:30 I thought to myself. The time I would ask how my little group of friends felt about going on a road trip, I bet they would say no. Especially since finals were in two weeks. They cared about passing the pointless tests, I used to care but not anymore. They didn't matter anymore, they only mattered when I wanted to be a doctor which I was not even going to attempt to get into medical school anymore. I was not going to eat lunch today or even go through the line like I usually did. Ever since the accident I barely ate. The smell of food nearly made me sick. If I could make myself eat it was only a snack, so I had lost a lot of weight, you couldn't really tell though.

As I entered the cafeteria I quickly spotted Rebecca and Olive seated in our usual spots. They had already received their lunches. Alec must be in line getting his lunch. I thought to myself. I quietly sat down at our "designated" table. "Skyyyyy, how has your day been?" They asked, ever since the accident they always try to make sure I was okay. They acted as if it had nothing to do with the accident, but anything anyone ever says to me has to do with the accident. "Pretty shitty, because I'm at school", I replied with a fake smirk on my face of course I was the only person who knew that. As soon as I finished that sentence Alec came up behind me and placed one of his hands on my shoulder and asked "What's shitty?" I replied with "You know everything, my day, my life in general." "Okay....." he said casually, he was trying not to sound concerned, but the look on his face gave away what he was feeling and thinking.

"So, what was it you wanted to tell us earlier Sky?!?!" Olive asked eager to know. "Well I had this idea..." I was interrupted by Becca, "Oooooo, what kind of idea." "If you would shut up I could tell you" I scolded her playfully easily making everyone laugh. I continued "I think we should take a road trip to California, I believe that if I do this one thing with my best friends it could help me move on. Also it might even help with my anxiety and depression." I said casually leaving out the part about my addiction. Alec was the first to speak, "I think if it will help you then we should do it... what do you say Olive, Rebecca?" At the same time Rebecca and Olive said "Sure why not?" Then Becca went on to say "It couldn't be that bad could it. And Skylar is my best friend, if she thinks it will help her then I'm up for it." I looked around at our little group, suprised to see the excited and eager faces looking back at me, and expecting more details. I was expecting concerned faces and them to be asking me if I felt okay, not once did a thought come into my head that said they would agree to my stupid idea. Alec scooted closer to me and looked into my eyes and kind of said in a whisper "When do we leave?" Our little moment was interrupted by Becca and Olive giggling and probably whispering about us. But there was not anything between me and Alec, there probably never would be, we were different and I don't think he thought about me that way.

A few minutes later....

"Anyway, I think we should leave this weekend. Also do you guys think you could come to my house later today so we can work out all the details?" I asked because today was Wednesday and we were leaving Friday. They all said "YES" at the same time. Then Alec looked at me and said "I have to sneak in through the window, because I remember how your aunt reacted when I shown up to go hang out with you guys last time. And she wouldn't let me upstairs." That made Becca and I laugh. It was about a week after I got out of the hospital, Becca and Olive had come over to see if I was okay and to see when I would be returning back to school. And I had asked where Alec was because despite how close me and Becca were, I was still really close with Alec who wouldn't be I had know him since the 3rd grade, my parents used to joke with his parents and say we would get married one day. Which made me laugh at the memory because I don't know how my aunt didn't recognize him, we were inseparable as young kids.

They finished eating, and we finished discussing the trip. And by the time we were done it was time to say our goodbyes and head back to class.