He was always there but I didn't know it

My memory return....

 I fall a sleep fast when I went to my room after I finish laughing, I have a nightmare last night everything is so dark, ever corner that I turned too there is no light. People are there killing each other I scream for help but my voice couldn’t reach them. I scream as loud as I could but it just wont reach them. Someone is getting closer to me, and there no one to help. Than after that Tomoseran wake me up, I'm glad that he did because I don’t want to know what happen to me afterward. It seem that he did go to sleep at all, I wonder what he doing all this time. Since I have school tomorrow I try to go to sleep but I'm too afraid that I would have the same nightmare again, so I asked Tomoseran if he could hold my hand until I fall a sleep and he did. I hope that he doesn’t mind doing this, not before long I fall a sleep. But not before long I dreamt that on the day of my accident someone hit on purpose, I saw that person car ride faster than all of the other car and the light is getting closure than BAM! it hit me. I woke up right after that.. What could this mean, he is the one who did this to me. What did I do, am I part of the gang or something or did I betray them. What does this mean? I'm so confuse, why why why does it has to be me. Even if I can't regain my memory I still want a peaceful life. I have a bad head ache this time, it hurt very bad that I collapse when I try to get out of bed. I felt like my head is try to fill back the can that once been empty. It hurt, I felt like my brain is about to explode. Tomoseran run toward me and pick me up, it seem like a doctor or something because right now he checking my purse, forehead, and asking my question. Not before long he took me to the hospital, he explain my condition to doctor and he even told the doctor what he suppose to treat me that the doctor kind of mad at him. I'm guessing that I'm causing him to much trouble right now, I felt he always their when I needed it him. Even though he would be gone from my sight but 2 second later when I'm hurt or what so ever he would be there. I'm I see thing or is it real, I'm so confuse now. I have to stay over night at the hospital, I'm somehow scared. My head is hurting so bad too, when ever my head hurt I regain some of my memory. Once someone told me that he could  see something that other someone can't see like spirit, it kind of scary. Who ever he is I just hope that he is nice, I mean even though he can see thing that other can't maybe he won't think or said something that would make other mad. A few minutes later Tomoseran came back with the doctor, it seem that the doctor saying something important about me to him, I wonder what it is. After the doctor left he didn’t said anything about it to me he just walked back inside and sit that was it.  

"Um are you okay, is there something wrong?" I asked him 

"NO there nothing wrong madam?" he said 

" You know if you keep it inside it wont get better but it would just pile up your pain, sorrow, and your worry. I mean you can talk to me, talking about it would help you calm down a little bit." 

"I'm a sure that nothing is wrong with me madam, now please get some rest." 

"Okay." 

Something about him is brothering me I don’t why but there is something wrong, whatever it is I'm guessing that he wanted to keep it a secret. I felt so strange now, when every I look at him I would get embarrass because of how I look right now a front of him. Is this what they call.. love, have I fallen in love with him or something no it can't be I don’t know anything about him. He have never treated me like a special person to him, all this time he treated me as a madam someone he would protect with his life. Is he stupid or something I mean I know that I might be and danger but there no reason for him to protect me with his life on the line, I don’t even want a bodyguard I could protect myself. I'm not a baby who couldn’t do anything, I must be a fool right now falling in love with a stranger and fact that stranger is now my protection. Now I couldn’t do anything but stare at him an a distant, I felt like I wanted to comfort him make his pain, sorrow, and worry gone. I wanted to be someone that he could be there for him when he feel sad, I want to share his pain, sorrow and worry with me. Um I'm I talking about right now, I guess I am a fool who have fallen in love but why he had never treated me like a special person like someone he care and loved for. But it seem like he only protect me now because maybe it his job. I get up and walked toward him, I reach out my hand try to touch his face but I pulled back. This is the first time I saw him sleep, he seem to be so peaceful but that is not it he just trying to hid something. I'm guessing that he having a nightmare because his leg is shacking, I don’t know what to do but I just sit beside him. Than I lay his head on my lab, and rub his head. Spuriously I thought that it wouldn’t work but I does not it seem like can he actually sleep and peace. Somehow I fall a sleep, and the next morning when Tomoseran wake up he seem so surprise that he was sleeping on my lab. I keep apologizing  over and over again, it seem like maybe this is his first time sleep on a girl lab but somehow I was happy about wonder why..