He was always there but I didn't know it

My feeling toward my Brother...

Last night I can't sleep that well at all, one reason it was because of my brother was there and second I have a bad fever too. Since my brother don’t want to wake my grandma up he have to take care of me last night, it seem like he kind of nervous touching me or something because his hand is always shaking when he try to like check my forehead if my fever had gone down yet. As for me I'm nervous too I mean come on he just confess to me and now he have to take care of me too, I can't believe that he keep that promise until now wait.....? Did he just said that he didn’t want to have a girlfriend because he made me that promise than why did he bring home a girl when I was in middle school? I don’t get this anymore what going on with my family right, first there a secret that my  family wont tell me and now it my brother liking me seriously there  really something wrong with my family...   

This morning when I woke up something so unexpected happen to me, somehow I was sleep next to my brother last night like side by side omg what going on last night. I remember that he take care of me but not sleep near him or next to him at all, let see I remember that I was kind of drunk or went crazy every time I have a high fever um I wonder what I did... Oh no I didn’t do that did I, it can't be no maybe I got it wrong. Usually when I'm sick or have a high fever I'm not myself but someone else, someone that is like how can I describe this um... I'm guess that I going to be a whole new person, than when I wake up the next day I would forgot about it something like that. So I'm guess that maybe last night I'm not myself but someone else and somehow I might accidentally ask him if I could sleep next to him because I'm scare right? I guess that might be possible...I wish that I didn’t do anything embarrassing last night even though he is my brother I felt weird show him that side of me, he a guy and I'm girl he might thing opposite of what we girl thinking right. I hope he didn’t do anything strange to me last night, because he told me that he never think of me as a sister but as a woman so I don’t know I just felt like he might do something strange to me. When I was little I always sleep with him, I don’t know why but I think that if I sleep with my brother I might be safe from something that under my bed and he would always mess with me about it, I grow out of sleep with him when I started to go to middle school... But right now I felt embarrassing see him sleep next tome, I don’t know what to do but froze right there and my face is bright red right now..  

"Hey bro what you doing in my sheet huh, go back to your own sheet?!" I told him  

" But it cold right now, could I just like stay here for a moment?" he ask me  

"Um I don’t think so now move to your own sheet Idiot!!!" I push him away from my sheet and he hit his head on the floor well that what he get for sleeping next to me last night hehehe  

" You know what, why can't you be nice to me like you did when you were little huh? Now you being so mean to me even though I take care of you last night and I couldn’t even go to sleep because of you changing to someone else..."  

Remember when I said that I act like a new person when I'm sick, by that I mean a ghost posses me when I'm sick or have a high fever because my body would be to weak to like cast them away from me so that is the reason why I would be a new person. At first I don’t know the reason why I would change to someone else, but I just know that now because my grandma had decide to tell me now...  

"So what did I do this time huh?" I asked him  

"Well first you were talking about going out side searching for something do dearly to you, after that you went to grandma house and started to eat ice cream the whole bucket is gone... Than you started to act like a cat, dog, even a frog kerokero  kerokero " great now he even make a rabbit sound that very funny..  

"Hahaha that very funny, here another question why were you sleeping next to me huh?"  

"Oh that I just it just..." " it just what huh?"