He was always there but I didn't know it

About The Curse...

Days and weeks has pass by in yet I still can't helped it I still miss him, I felt like I had been curse I don’t know but that how it felt like. My first boyfriend was when I'm in middle school and that turned out horrible, my first love had two feeling for two girl and he still love his ex and now him. I loved him so much and he love me too but why does he have to die instead me, what he or me did wrong.  I don’t know why I felt like something had happen to me when I'm a kid, because I don’t remember anything about myself when I was 8 year old. I think that maybe something happen to me when I was 8 year old, because when I woke up the next day I was in the forest all alone and that was it that I remember. I wonder what is it that happen to me that my parent didn’t tell me, should I asked them about it. Ever since the day of Tomoseran death I been having this dream, but I would never get to the end. I been walking in the forest, I just keeping following a path but I never reach to the end of the path even though I run as fast as I could I never get there. Is there a secret about me, is there something that I shouldn’t know? isn't going to hurt me when I know the truth about what happen to me when I'm 8 year old? What my parent told me last time is that a lie about me getting kidnapped? I'm just confusing, is there something that I don’t know come on! I'm just so mad and angry at myself, but suddenly a bird a lot of them was all around my porch. I wonder what it is but when I step outside I saw a woman, she wear kimono cloths and her hair was dark black she was so pretty, and she look very rich but somehow she doesn’t seem happy. Everything about her doesn't seem right what is she? Is she a ghost or something or a wonder spirit? But the thought of it give me shivering to my spine... I'm so scare I don’t know what to do I wanted to run down stair but somehow she already at my door it seem like she could read my thought or something like that. Whatever she is I don’t want to know by looking at her is just to scary already...  

"There no need for you to be afraid of me, did you forget about me? We meet before when you were 8." she told me. What I meet her before when I was 8, is she the one who kidnapped me or something. Mommy I need your help, I'm just to scare to be here alone with her.  

" What do you mean we meet before? Are you the one who kidnapped me or something like that?" I mumble as I talk to her, I can't even talk normal to her. I thought that she wouldn’t understand me because I didn’t speak to her clearly but somehow she could understand me, she getting freaky every minutes and second. Right now I can't even move it felt like she has control my body right now, and she disappear but I still hear her voices.  She was laughing when I asked her that, what is so funny about someone being kidnapped. Her laughter sound so full of anger and scary at the same time... 

"So your parent didn’t tell you the truth huh?  Am  I right?"  

" Tell me what? Who are you by the way?"  

" If your parent hasn't told you yet than I guess they still think I'm telling a lie huh? Why don’t you ask your parent about it maybe they told you about me and what happen to you when you were 8? Me I'm just  someone who been in this world for many  year that is all you need to know, and please don’t ask me to many question?" 

"Why not? I mean how do you know me?" this time she look so scary, her eyes is super red and there blood all over her cloth and on her face too. I was scare, why does it have to be me why am I the one who got to meet a ghost or whatever she is. 

" I told you don’t ask me anymore question!" she sound so angry. 

After she said than  she was gone and she written something on my wall with blood it said that after my family told me what happen, and if I still wanted to break the curse than I have to meet her at shrine where she save me. But an return I have to give her something, she said that she would told me about when I get their. I don’t know if I should believe her or not but right now I guess I have to ask my parent what happen to me when I was 8. When I lift my room I'm to scare to look at the mirror I'm afraid that she might be in there too looking at me with the bloody face of her. I ran down stair calling for my mom and dad, but it seem like no body is at home. I was all alone when she was here it seem like she know I was alone, isn't that why she come to me. Why does she show up now, did she come here to answer my question that I been asking myself or something. If it is why does it have to be her, someone that isn't alive why does it have to be the dead? Do we have a connection to each other or something? That can't it, it would be impossible for me to have a connection with her. Since today is Saturday, and my family is out except for me. I wait for them in fear I afraid that she would show up again to scare me, I turn on every light ton the house and turn all type of object for her to show up to scare me away from me. It late but my family hasn’t come home yet, somewhere around 8 someone knock on the door.  I get up and walked toward the front door, I thought it was my parent but when I open the door it wasn’t them it was her again this time she was scarier than before. She turn the light on and off and she shake the house and write every corner of the house with her blood. All over it said "How dear you betray me, I thought you were like me but you had betray me for that person why? why?"  I don’t know what she mean, than she fly toward me and choke me said the same thing she wrote on the wall over and over. I thought that I was about to die but someone show up at the front door I don’t who because it was very dark to see, I'm guessing that the person is a priest, because she mumble something that I don’t even understand after that the ghost was gone and the light had turn on again but the writing is still in the wall. The person who help me was my grandma, wait she never told me that she was a priests all I know is that our family had a shrine and that is it.