He was always there but I didn't know it

Please don't tell me...

I wish that I could stay  like this for ever, but I know that it's not going to last forever that Is why that every moment I have with Tomoseran would be something that I cherish, and I well spend my every last breath with him until it's all over. I look at Tomoseran, and he look at me back than gently kiss me on the forehead. There is so much that I want to tell you and share with you but I have so little ways to explain it.  

Tomoseran, took me home and I wave him good bye when he lift.  I would see him again tomorrow, but I can't wait. I want him to stay by my side always, I can't bare or watch him disappear from me like last time again. This time maybe I need to stop worrying. I was so tired that I went to bed real early today. But somehow even though I am a sleep I keep thinking about him. His voice was ringing in my head saying that you don't need to worry about me, so I'm not worry about him anymore. It was morning before I knew it, and I slept real cozy last night. I ran down stair to have my breakfast, everyone was here, and guess what about a week ago my dad got a dog for me it was a little baby dog and I had to take care of it. I waited for Tomoseran, when I finish eating I heard I someone knocking on our door, I ran to the door hoping that it was Tomoseran but it wasn't him. It was a police men he had a upsetting look on his face, I became worried again, but I didn't know why. 

"Hi officer, is everything alright I mean is there something wrong?" I asked him. I know that officer he my dad best friend so, he is like an uncle to me. Usually when he come by there something exciting he wanted to tell us but today he seem to don’t know the look of his face seem like something is wrong and that matter would be me getting upset or I might be I don’t know sad about it when I heard the news.  

"Um sorry Yuki, I don’t know how to but this in word that wouldn’t hurt you but um..." why didn't he finish his sentence is there something that would actually hurt me or something. 

"What is it come on tell me, I don’t have all day you know. I got so place to be after you done, and I guess today is your lucky day you got to meet him you know the guy I told you about last time."  will I just told a talk a little about him to him but I don’t mention his name because I might get in trouble going out with my professor... 

"Is the boy your talking about last time is your professor and his name Tomoseran right?" he asked. 

"Yes, how do you know what him?" 

"I'm sorry but I have some upsetting news about him." 

"What is it?" I said, I was even more worry that my eye's became teary than the police men told me something that terrified me so much that I could commit a suicide to myself. 

"Tomoseran is, you see he is dead and while we check on him to see his family member or someone who know him but on his wallet he have a picture of y'all two I'm sorry pumpkin." 

" You lying he can't be dead, he just call me a moment ago. He say that he going to be here in 20 minutes no I wont believe you." 

"Than how are you going to explain this picture right here?" he show it to me 

 I started crying so hard that even my mom was crying everyone was crying when they heard the news, I wanted to live happily with him like he said we would, but it can't happen because he is dead, even thinking about it would make me so upset I wanted to scream so much, then I realize that voice that I heard an my dream the voice of Tomoseran telling me to not worry, but I can't strop worrying because I knew something like this would happen someday. I was hoping to spend our life together until the very end but I can't do that either, why isn't that this world don’t accept us isn't because I'm different from everyone. Is it that my hair and eyes changing when ever my emotion change is it a cruse that was case on me or something, a cruse that I can't fall in love with anyone but if I do one of us might die isn't something like this.  

I can't believe that this is happening right now, I don’t know what to do but instead I told my uncle to took me to the hospital so that I could see it myself. I don’t want to know what happen to him I just don’t want to believe what had happen no he can't be dead... I just keep repeating to myself that he isn't dead. There are so many traffic on our way to the hospital I can't even stay still I don’t know what will happen to me if it is actually him, I don’t know what to do without him.  I mean when I found how him I feel like I was blessed, and I will never ever wanted to leave him I try to imagine myself with out him it was nothing but darkness everywhere, imagining me without him I be lost and so confuse. I wouldn't last a day, I'll be afraid with out you there to see me through. Lord you know it just impossible because of you it's all brand new. Finally we get to the hospital, we went running toward his room and guess what right there laying down on the bed was him. I don’t want to believe it but it was there his body, he felt so cold like ice and he breathless. I don’t even know what to do but throw myself on him and cry till there no more tear to touch the floor.  I can't  imagine myself without him.

"What happen to him?" I ask. 

"He was run over by a car, it was a hit and run so we don't know who did it, I'm so sorry." Why is it that all of this thing have to happen to me, and why is it that most of the accident that has occur in my life is always getting run by a car, could it be that the person kill Tomoseran was actually done it on purpose if so than I well find who it is and get revenge, most people have done horrible things to me when I done nothing, and if they want to play evil than I wont play nice. The police men lift, and I was still upset, my family create a funeral for him, and I promise him on his grave that I wont forget him, I even promise to him that I would do anything to get revenge for him. I was ready to get my revenge, and I don't care if it takes me forever to do it. When I came home form his funeral I went to my room, and sat down in bed there is no way that I'm going to let them get away from this, if they hurt someone that I care a lot about than I have to do something about it, if I just sit and wait than that makes me a bad person I can't just let someone I love die, because I have to do something to show that I care. 

My mom called me for dinner and we still acted as if Tomoseran is alive, but we know he is not. My family is all he have now, I mean he just return to me he hasn’t been in the earth for long yet but why...why would they did this to him isn't because of me or something. Each day has pass by I still hasn't forget about him, I would always remember him maybe someday I would meet him maybe he waiting for me right now at the other. I would always keep the ring that he give me by my side, I don’t know why but I'm still thinking that if I still have this ring maybe someday we would meet again. Maybe something good happen something like a miracle so I guess that for now I just have to wait until that miracle come. I guess now as long as the start shine down fro heaven and the river run into the sea till the end of time forever you’re the only love I need because in my life he is all the matter and my eyes u see the truth I see. When ever I'm in trouble he would always be there for me now I have to be strong and be there for him even though he not here but deep inside of my heart he is here with me forever and I can live with that.