He was always there but I didn't know it

My Journey to the other side...

After we eat done I told my grandma and grandpa that I'm starting my journey to the other side tomorrow morning. They kind of confuse, because they said that I should wait for 49 days, but it to long and I can't wait that long anymore I don’t care what going to happen to me at the other side anymore. I can't just stay still while someone calling me for help, I'm going to be their new priest maybe at least this is all I could do for them. I want to make thing right for myself and wont make any mistake, I promises myself that I would save Tomoseran no matter what the cost now. Even if I have to die to save him or everyone it doesn’t matter anymore. 

This morning I wake up very early and start packing, I bring everything I needed even something that would protect me from evil spirit. I learnt that the spirit who commit suicide is a bad spirit they wanted you to die the same way they did. My grandparent wake up early too they help me start packing and my grandma teach me some technique  that I would needed, and some word that I have to remember always. After that I have a little bit of breakfast and I'm off, so far I still hasn’t call my friend or my parent yet I hope that they not worry about me. Will I guess I would have to tell them when I get back home alive.  

My grandparent walk with me to the shrine, than told me to be careful and make it back alive with Tomoseran. I follow the path, than when I look back there nothing but foggy I can't see my grandparent no more. I'm kind of scare, I saw all type of ghost here some try to posses me but I use the technique  that my grandma taught me and it work. But as I walk farther someone was waiting for me up ahead but when I saw it OMG my heart about to jump, his eye was dark black he got no leg and he flow toward me waving I don’t know what it is to me... He just keep saying " You evil witch get out of here, or I would kill you.." Over and over again I don’t know what to do except scream. You know what I regret coming here, I wish I could go back now but it no late and I make it this far already. Why does this path way have to be so long, I felt I been walking for days already. As I walk for a little bit farther someone come toward me at first I thought that he going to hurt me or scare but he said he come to help me find my way through wow I don’t know that some of the ghost are this nice over here. First he didn't said anything, he just told me to follow him and that is it. I thought that we would get there faster if I follow him but it seem like there a long way down. 

"So who are you?" I asked him, I couldn’t see his face very will either. It seem like he blocked his face so that I wouldn’t see who it is, or know who he is either. 

" I don’t know, I don’t even remember who I am or when I get here all I know is that I'm here that is it." I felt sorry for him, it must be so sad to not know anything about yourself. 

" I'm sorry, you must be sad for not remembering anything right?" 

"NO actually I'm fine with out knowing anything, because if I do know than I might regret it. Know thing is awful, they make you feel regretful and sad. Sometime when you have love who is alive think of it make you feel like you shouldn’t meet that person now you lift her alone with nobody to care for her that how I think of it."  

" Oh really, I guess you right know thing does hurt and feel regretful. I once meet someone, I love that person so much but somehow he died even though it might be an accident I felt like it my fault that cause his death..."  

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Where am I how did I end up here, I been walking for hour and days I still don’t know what happen to me. Worst of all I don’t even know who I am and how I ended up here. I felt like I been walking for so many year but it felt like I don’t know I felt strong. Without food or drink I felt strong, why? What happen to me? As I question myself so many time I saw a woman she walked toward me, she somehow I saw her from far now she here is she a ghost...