You Are Missing From Me (Book 1)

The Letter

Bill had agreed to let me stay (hide out) at Shell Cottage. No one really knew about the place according to him. It seemed perfect. The twins promised to visit often so I had that to look forward to but that didn't really make me feel better. The one person I wanted the most, to tell me everything was going to work out, that this will all be over soon couldn't be here. I need to see him but it's impossible. No one has seen him since the night Dumbledore died and he begged me to stay in the common room no matter what I heard or saw. He handed me a letter that I have read countless times I have it memorized.

To my dearest love,

I love you...I need you to know I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, I need you to know that every day that we have spent together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.

I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once I saw you all those years ago on the platform, it was clear that neither of us could control what was going to happen between us. They say the best relationships are the ones you never saw coming. I guess it's true, you will forever be my always.

But I don't think we can be together right now. Especially if HIS plans succeed tonight. Everything will become clear eventually and I hope you will be able to forgive me once I can forgive myself but until that day I need you not to contact me in anyway as it is not safe and I think you will work out why, you always were too smart for your own good.

Even though I love you with everything I have to let you go is the hardest thing I will ever have to do but it is the only way for me to protect you. I will not return to Hogwarts next September, the reason will be clear and I think you shouldn't either. Just trust me on this, okay? Arianna I will never forget the time we shared and maybe if we survive this war one day we might possibly meet again. I hope we do and the light side succeeds. I leave you these words as a way to explain my feelings and the hope you can look back at your life without a doubt of our time together being real.

I wish that I could hold your heart,

Cradle it gently in my hands,

But my arms just are not strong enough,

To hold what I don't understand,

My eyes have seen a lot of things,

And I thought I had seen them all,

But the way your smile ignites my own,

Makes me think there's so much more,

These walls around this heart of mine,

Have stood collecting dust,

But it's as though you've found the gate,

That leads right to my trust,

I've never really liked my name,

But on your lips it sounds so sweet,

And your voice is my favourite song,

That's forever on repeat,

But even though I feel all this,

I can never let you see,

Because your heart deserves a whole lot more,

Than a broken man like me.

I love you forever and always,

DM