Judith [small caps intended]

chapter 11

judith,

 

 

 

i think i need fresh air. i feel like i'm getting suffocated by this sensation lingering in the air. is this death scent? a new brand of perfume? probably.

i went outside alone and i feel like life is so cruel. it's already midnight therefore it is already december 31. it's been three hours since you left me. since you left us.

and just... why? 

i cried as i see fireworks from above. it's so colorful yet, i can't seem to appreciate it. i was supposed to love fireworks...

 

 

until you ruined all of it. 

 

it's not like i'm blaming you or something. you ruined it because of me. 

i closed my eyes as i can hear the fireworks boom from the sky. feeling the breeze hiss against me and then i heard a faint whisper.

 

 

'this is your fault.' and then i cried. my conscience agrees with me. 

i cried and i covered my face with my hands until i felt arms wrapped around me. it's so warm though, my heart feels so cold. so empty.

it's like i'm just an empty shell of tori.

 

so bittersweet.

 

 

 

lovingly yours,

tori