Judith [small caps intended]

chapter 25

judith,

 

 

 

i woke up dreaming about you. you know what? the weight i felt was gone a little.

it's already your 40th day and i dreamt of you.

you were so happy and you asked where the gravy was for the roasted pig.

you love those, don't you?

 

and i know that inside me you were always whispering "it's not your fault" but the problem is, i wasn't listening to you.

i smiled. for the first time in weeks, i smiled.

 

sure, there was still a twinge of pain and i know i can't remove that but i know that you are always there, whispering those words but the problem is, i was just covering it by blaming myself. 

 

and i know just like me, you will be happy if i'm happy.

 

despite your absence.

despite the fact that you will never see me again. or maybe, i will never see you again.

 

 

even though i can feel your presence beside me.

 

 

 

lovingly yours,

tori