Social Anxiety

3- experience

I guess you can call my class Anti-social . They all can be really rude and do some weird stuff? Like annoying, weird stuff.

I have this one boy in class that is always loud and says dumb things. You just want to facepalm yourself. He is the kind of boy that just is starting to lay on you in class, cutting his leg hair off and giving it to you, stuff like this. I sat next to him like 3 times. It was the worst.

So this Boy, we call him A sits with another boy (B) behind me.. Not always tho (YEY!). So A and B were really bored so they decided to throw paperballs (Is this the right word?) and they picked me. Being the quiet and scared person I am said nothing and turned red when they started laughing at me.

Tbh I just wanted to cry at that moment. Then Boy A said: "I'm going to take them out of your hair." but like no? You can't.

I said quietly to him that I will take them out myself and I was so ashamed because of my redness, but ofc he didn't listened and started to bend over from behind and started touching my hair, and my neck, like could you please not? Did I ask you to do this? Even when you try to get away he just pulls you back and everything...

Then when he does things like this he points out bad things about you and asks "Are you nervous or what?", and things like this.. just makes you anxious and brings down your self-esteem. Idk if he's doing it on purpose..

I couldn't even ask him to stop bc I thought he will just laugh at me beeing stupid or something. The end result was that I felt so sick afterwards, more blushing and soft trembling.

This was just one experience I wanted to share, since I never really had the courage to tell.