Connor just left and I have 20 minutes until I have to be at where Josh told me to meet him. I've never been there but I know where it is.
I pull a pair of black skinny jeans out off the dresser and put them on. They feel a little tight but oh well. I put on a white long sleeved shirt and my tan boots. I pull my hair out of the ponytail and let my natural hair flow down my back. I check my phone, 10 minutes to get there. I slide my phone in my pocket and walk downstairs. I go out the door and get in the truck then start driving.
I park on the side of the road and get out. He told me to meet him at the old park. I have no idea why though. It's been snowing on and off all day. I make my way over to the shelter area. I stop in my tracks when I see not only Josh sitting on a bench but Connor too. Why is Connor here? I thought he just wanted to talk to me. This isn't going to end well. I walk over and give them both a small smile.
"You're probably wondering what Connor is doing here. Aren't you?"
"Well, yeah."
"I can explain why he's here if you want."
"I do want to know."
"When we got in that fight and I called you whore, which I'm sorry about, I didn't understand what you meant by you've only slept with 2 guys until after you left. You have only slept with me and Connor so you need to pick."
"What?"
"He means that you need to choose which one of us you want to be with," Connor explains.
How can I choose between them? Connor is my best friend. I've only known Josh for a short amount of time but it seems longer. I care about them both so much. I couldn't choose. It would have to be neither one of them because I couldn't live with just one. I would still want to be friends with the one I don't choose to be my boyfriend. I know they wouldn't agree with that though. I can't blame them.
Connor should be my answer. He is everything I need and want. Our kisses are full of passion and love. I feel complete when I'm with him. Josh is whole different story. Our kisses are full of lust and desire. I don't feel complete when I'm with him but I do feel something amazing. How could anyone choose between them?
"I can't choose either one of you."
They both look at each other then me in shock.
"Care to explain why," questions Josh.
"I care about both you so much. I couldn't just choose between one of you."
"You can't have both of us," says Connor.
"I know that. I just need some time to think."
"Okay, you can have a week but that's it," says Josh.
I nod then walk away. I have a week to decide between them. I still don't see how I'm going to figure this out. I need some help. I think I know the person who can help me.
I get in the truck and start driving home. I pull into the driveway and get out. I walk into the house and up to my room. I sit on my bed and pull out my phone. I let out a sigh then dial one of the only numbers I know by heart.
"Hello?"
"Hey gran, is mom there?"
"No sweetie, I haven't heard from her since she dropped Beth off about a week ago."
"Oh, I'll call her cellphone. Is Beth okay?"
"Yes, she's fine. She's just confused on why she's here."
"I'll call mom then call you back. Okay?"
"Okay, sweetie."
I hang up. So my mom dumped Beth off at our grandmas house then left. Why in the world would she do that? I dial my moms number and wait.
"Heyyyyy."
"Mom?"
"Katie! Hi honey! How are you?!"
She's fucking drunk.
"Where are you?"
"At that old hotel at the end of town. Why?"
I hang up. So she dumped Beth off to go party? What kind of mother is she? I need to go talk some sense into her. I go back out the door and get in the truck. I start driving towards the old hotel.
I park in the parking lot and get out. I start looking for my moms car. I spot it in front of one of the rooms. I storm over there and knock on the door. It swings open and a old guy is standing there. I push pass him and look over the room. There's beer bottles, needles, pill bottles, crushed up pills, and joints laying everywhere. I see my mom sitting in a corner getting ready to lite a joint. I storm over to her and knock it out of her hand.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?!"
She looks up at me and smiles.
"Katie, you came to join the fuuuun."
"No, I didn't. What is wrong with you. You left me then dropped Beth off at grandmas!"
She looks at me confused then says," You kids are gonna be fine."
"No, mom, we aren't but don't you worry about us anymore. I'll take care of myself and Beth from now on."
She just rolls her eyes and picks up the joint off the floor. I knock it out of her hands again before walking out of the room. I run to my car and get in. I slam the door and start driving. I'm going to be grandmas and telling her all about this. Hopefully, she'll agree with the plan I came up with as I was yelling at my worthless mother.
I park in my grandmas driveway an hour later. I get out and walk inside her house. I hear her talking to someone in the living room. I walk in there and she smiles at me.
"I was waiting for you to call back."
"I know I'm sorry but I called mom and then went and saw her."
"Where is she? Is she okay?"
I hate to have to tell her this about her own daughter but she has to know. I let out a sigh and tell her everything that happened.
She shakes her head and says," Oh my, sweetie. I'm so sorry."
"It's okay. I have a plan."
"What is it?"
"Well I'm already 18 and you're too old to take care of Beth. I'm going to get a job and an apartment then get custody of her. I can take care of her but until I get everything figured out, can she stay here?"
"Are you sure? I can always get one of your aunts to take care of her."
"I'm positive."
"Okay, sweetie. I'll support your choice 100%."
I give her a hug and say," Thank you so much."
I pull away and look around.
"Where's Beth?"
"In the spare bedroom."
I nod and walk to it. I open the door and she jumps up when she sees me. I lean down so that I'm eye to eye with her.
"Sissy, I missed you! Where's mommy?"
"I missed you too. Listen, you're going to stay here for a little longer then I'll come and get you. You're going to live with me. Doesn't that sound fun?"
"Yes! But where's mommy?"
"Mommy isn't going to be with us anymore. She went away."
She frowns then nods. I hug her and kiss her forehead.
"I'll see you soon, okay?"
"Okay. I love you."
"I love you too."
I smile at her then walk out of the room. I tell my grandma bye then walk out of the house. I get in the truck and start driving back home.
I finally get back home at 9 pm. I go to my room and lay down. It's going to be a busy day tomorrow. I have finals and then after that I have to go job hunting. This is going to be hard but I have to do it for Beth. She needs me.
