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Chapter Fifteen

Adam's POV:

After we left the store, we decided it was probably about time to head back to the hotel. It was kind of shocking to me, even though I had proposed to Tommy, that he was really mine. That we would be able to be together until death. It was almost too much for me to comprehend, but that didn't mean it was a bad thing. When we arrived back at our room, Tommy sprawled out on the bed, not bothering to take off anything. I giggled and shook my leather jacket off, hanging it up in our closet. Our closet...did this mean I had to get an apartment now? Should I get a place for us to live together? So many questions flooded my head, but I didn't want to overwhelm Tommy with everything at this moment; he already had a very eventful night and all.

When I found Tommy again, he was changing into some fleece pajama pants and a plain white t-shirt. I hugged him tightly from behind, making him squeak out of surprise. I loosened my grip on him and he turned around, still wrapped in my arms.

"What's on your mind, Tommy? You've been quiet since we left the formal wear store downtown," I asked out of blatant curiosity.

His face pulled together, almost looking angry, "I just have a lot to think about..."

I kissed his forehead, "Tell me. I want to know; I don't like seeing you upset or anything."

Tommy pulled away from my embrace and sat down on the bed, folding his hands in his lap. "I don't know Adam. What does us getting married do to the rest of the band? I mean, are we just going to break everyone up and tell them we're done just because we're getting married? Or are we going to stay together and make everyone else feel somewhat awkward and out of place? I don't want our era to end yet," He quietly explained.

I sat down next to my fiancee and grabbed one of his hands, "Wouldn't you think that everyone is going to respect our decision? I mean, they accept that I'm gay, don't they? Us getting married shouldn't be a problem, and if it is, we find new people. If you don't want our band to break up, then I'm not willing to let it happen."

Tommy looked over at me, "What about the fans?"

I smiled, "What about them?"

Tommy returned my the smile and lied back on the bed, "You're fantastic, Adam," he paused for a moment, "And I love you so much."

I rose from the comfortable bed and gazed at him; I never had enough time in a day to just...admire him. "And I love you."

Emily's POV:

What do I do?

In the last ten seconds, that question ran through my mind almost fifty times.

When Cole pulled away from the kiss that he caused, I had to decide quickly whether this was what I wanted or if I was happy with Darren. In all honesty, I was perfectly happy with Darren; I mean, it's going to be hard to break up with someone who holds your virginity, but I still wanted Cole more than anything. After all the anxiety, depression, cutting, and suicide attempts that he put me through, was I seriously considering jumping back into a relationship with him?

Of course I was, because I'm fucking insane.

"I'm...sorry..." I murmured, still inches away from his lips.

He looked down into my eyes, "Why would you be sorry? Shouldn't I be sorry?"

I pulled back further, creating a space between us. "I just...I'm confused, Cole."

Of course, he gets closer, "Then talk to me; can't we work this out? We have so many times before, Emily."

"I know, it's just...I want to do this again. I want it so bad. But I have Darren, and..." I can't just tell him that he fucked me, can I?

He nodded his head knowingly, "You...had sex with him didn't you?"

All I could do was nod. I'm not keeping anything from him.

"Oh..." he sighed quietly.

I finally gave in and was wrapped in his warm embrace once again, "Cole, I want to be with you..."

How dramatic I sound...

"I know," He said into my hair, "But give it some time. Decide if you can really break up with your boyfriend before running to me, okay?"

I nodded against his chest; his heartbeat was so calm and distracted me from everything I wanted to run from in that moment. Could I honestly just leave Darren? No, I couldn't. But...I didn't know Darren as well as I knew Cole, and that was something that kind of scared me. The person who I allowed to take my virginity, my purity, I barely know.

I can't allow that to go on. I just can't.

"Emily?"

Darren?

"Emily!" He shouted louder. I could hear his footsteps approaching behind me. I turned instinctively to protect Cole when I also saw Katherine trailing behind him.

What the hell is going on?

"What are you doing with him? Are you cheating on me, Emily?" He shouted right in my face.

Anger boiled inside of me and the man that I loved more than anything a few seconds ago was now yelling at me, accusing me of something that I didn't cause.

"Shut up Darren! I don't want to hear your bitching right now! First of all, what are you doing running around with Katherine?" I yelled back, fired up.

Darren ran his hand over his face in frustration, "Listen, she was just helping me find you because you wouldn't answer your phone and I was worried, okay? We weren't...no, alright?"

"How come I should believe you? How do I know you weren't cheating on me, since you were so quick to accuse me?" I nearly screamed and Cole placed a hand on my shoulder, a warning to calm down before we attract too much attention.

You could almost see Darren steam like a vegetable, and it was hilarious to me. "You don't know shit, you hear me? I was worried about you, not hanging around with your friend, hugging her in public! Who is this dick, anyways?"

"This dick," I spit at him, "Just happens to be my ex-boyfriend and best friend. You know what Darren? Get out of my life. I don't want to see you again and if you come to any of my friends to find me again, I swear to God I will not hesitate to call the police and/or beat the shit out of you. Get it?" I lowered my voice.

Darren backed up slowly, furiously glaring at me, then turned around and walked off. Now I was face to face with Katherine, and I didn't know what to think about her telling my now ex-boyfriend that she would help him stalk me.

"Emily, I swear, I didn't know he would act like that. I was just trying to help him out because I could tell he was worried! I mean...I'm sorry, I just don't even know what to say," Katherine tried to explain, stepping closer to me.

All I could do was hug her, whether she liked it or not (because she hates hugs), and she hugged back. "Listen, I'm not going to be mad at you because I know you have good intentions. Darren is just a douche; that has nothing to do with you, okay?" I assured her.

We pulled apart and turned to find Cole who looked like he was in shock. Both Katherine and I laughed at his expression and waved my hand in front of his face teasingly. He joined us in laughter and we all started walking back to my car.

After dropping Cole off at his house and Katherine at hers, I ended up driving around town for almost an hour, not even sure of what to do. I didn't want to bother Adam and Tommy, knowing they were probably busy with whatever engaged gays do in their free time, but I didn't really want to go home and face my family who would only end up yelling at me for staying out so late (being that it was almost 11 pm).

And I still ended up going home to a lecture-fest.

//Author's Note//

YAY DOUBLE UPDATE NIGHT!!! :D

-Emily