Saving Lyrics

Epilogue

FInally uploaded. Please drop a comment and a vote. Thanks you so much!

 © 2011 Carol Nieves

I can't even put into words all of the emotions that I am feeling right this moment. I'm anxious, nervous, and excited, among other things. My left hand was holding the hand of my rock, the only one that has been there for me through all of this circus that we call the entertainment business.

If you asked me if this was possible five years ago, I would have said absolutely not. Five years ago I was at my darkest place, my lowest low.

After my mom gave me Danielle's letter at the hospital, I went through a big depression. Not just because I lost her, but because I didn't even had a chance to say goodbye.

I couldn't play my guitar for almost three months, while I underwent physical therapy and recovered all the movement in my shoulder and arm from being shot.

School was never the same without her. Every time I entered our homeroom, my eyes went straight to her seat, to her usual spot, hoping that by some miracle I would see her there. Hoping that she was back. But it was always the same. Empty.

Matt tried so hard to cheer me up. I won't lie, he did made me crack up at times with his jokes, but after a few minutes of his jokes, I went back to my misery like state.

I went to the Ellison's home almost daily. They always welcomed me there with open arms, but they would never budged . All I wanted was a phone number or an address to get a hold of her in any way, but I always came back home empty handed.

One day back at school I was just laying down in the music wing, just moping around like a sad puppy dog, when all of the sudden I saw a hand in front of me. I looked up to find Jenna of all people. I thought she was going to pour salt on the wounds. But I was wrong. "Come on Camden, I'm sick and tired of seeing you like this. I know you are suffering, but do you think that this is what she wanted? I don't think so! So get your ass up and get your act together, besides I heard a rumor that she is graduating with us. Do you want her to see you like a hobo in the middle of a pity party?"

I didn't know if Jenna was lying, but just the idea of having Dani back for graduation gave me a flick of light. A little tiny string of hope.

Another day Matt said something that changed my view on mine and Danielle's relationship, or situation . He told me to remember what Danielle's life was like. That she needed the help she was getting or she was never going to be mine. Philosophical Matt has his moments and this was one of them, but then he came right back to normal crazy Matt when he finished with the quote, "If you love somebody, set her free....If she comes back, lock her away so she never leaves again....If she doesn't come back, hunt her down and kill her!" Only Matt!

Matt's philosophical words were the reason why I was sitting here today at the Grammys, nominated for best song of the year. His words were the inspiration to write a song dedicated to my Princess.

A song I wrote 5 years ago named Butterfly. I wrote that song the day I finally understood why she left and why she did it the way she did.

I have been nominated to the Grammy's four times before for best song and taken home one of the trophies already. But this one was special. This one would mean the world to me because it is the song that is closest to my heart. The one I wrote for her. The one that gave me hope day after day.

{Lyrics of the song}

When you love someone so deeply

They become your life