It's not love if it doesn't destroy you

Chapter Ten

Derek's pov
I have come up with a genius idea, I'm going to surprise Meredith with a romantic dinner, I have no more surgeries for today so I'm going to go to Owen and ask for the rest of the day off. I see that Owen is in Surgery so I go to talk to him.

D: hey Owen I have a question, would I be able to get the rest of the day off, I checked and I have no scheduled procedures. Maggie is watching the kids tonight so I wanted to do a big romantic dinner for Meredith.

O: Um ya that should be fine I will inform Amelia

D: thanks Owen see ya tomorrow

Later that night

Merediths pov
I figure that Derek's already home in bed or just eating dinner , today was a long day I can't wait till I get to sleep. When I open the door I see flowers scattered everywhere and a multitude of candles, what catches my eye is when Derek walks up to me looking so handsome in his suit, I can't believe he went out of his way to do this for me.

M: Derek this is amazing I don't know what to say

D: I'm glad you like it , please sit down so that I can serve you dinner and then we can talk

M: the food smells delicious, steak is my favourite and you cooked it perfectly. what made you want to do all this , I wasn't expecting this at all

D: I wanted to show you how much I love you with a big romantic gesture, since it's what we seem to do. Also Maggie is watching the kids so I saw an opportunity and I took it. I wanted to spoil you because you deserve it. I love you Meredith you are my world

M: Derek this is ... uh I don't know what to say, you are amazing and I love you to. Thank you for all of this. You really are McDreamy If you think about it we haven't had a romantic night in what seems like forever

D: it's nice just you and me In the home that I built for us and our family. I know I hurt you and I broke your trust, but I feel that we are slowly reconnecting again. I don't know what I would have done if you didn't take me back

M: Derek you did hurt me and I will never forget what you did but I want to move past it. I want to give our kids the life I never had. I want to be able to show them what true love looks like and show them what a happy healthy family is. We will never be perfect but I know that our love is strong enough to hold us together. If you ever cheat on me again though I swear I will cut of your balls and divorce you so don't do it ok ( I said half serious half jokingly)

D: Meredith I swear I will never be so stupid and wreck less again.

M: not to ruin the mood but I have just been wondering what if the roles were reversed and I cheated on you what would you have done

D: it's a valid question , I would have been furious and probably 10x as mad as you were. I would have probably been upset because I love you more then I ever loved Addison. I most likely would have wanted to try to work things out for the kids, but it would have been hard for me to forgive you. I just can't imagine how you felt I feel so bad for what I did I'm so sorry Meredith.

M: well at least both of us would want to stay together for the kids. I just wanted to know your process of if I cheated on you. Don't worry I would never cheat on you, I could never imagine doing that to you. Thank you for dinner it was amazing and thank you for all of this I truly appreciate all of it. So to get back to the happier more romantic mood what do you have planned for the rest of the night

D: well if we were in a different situation I would have said a long night of hot steamy sex ( Derek said it with on of his infamous smirks and glowing eyes) but I know that it's too soon and against the rules, so I was thinking we could just watch a movie on Netflix

M: that would have been nice (Meredith had one her infamous smirks and winked at Derek) , do u Remember our post it wedding night when we made love in front of the fireplace , now that was a good night

D: how could i forget that night, but ah um ok we need to change the topic ok enough of this you are too much of a tease let's focus on something else. before we get carried away we should probably pick a movie. What do u want to watch?

M: ya we wouldn't want someone to get excited for something that won't happen tonight. I haven't had time to watch a movie in a while but how about we watch Just Go With It , I have heard from some of my patients that it's a good movie

After the movie -

Merediths pov
The movie finished and I mention that we should go to bed since we both have to be at work tomorrow for 8.

M: ahhh ( Meredith yawned) I'm pretty tired we should probably go to bed now, thank you for tonight Derek all of this means a lot. You always blow me away with your romantic gestures

D: Ya I'm pretty tired to and Meredith I would do anything for you. I need to catch up and make up for loss time. I'm going to woo you and win you back. So just wondering do you still want me to sleep in the guest room

M: yes I think that would be best, we have made a lot of progress but I just think I need more time, don't worry things will eventually click again plus Derek you always cease to woo me you're so sweet ( Meredith gave Derek one of her half smiles)

D: well I will be thinking of you all night, goodnight Meredith I love you ( Derek went over and kissed Meredith on the cheek and gave her a tight hug)

Merediths pov:
Derek and I hugged for a while, for a few mintutes I forgot everything that had happened in the last few months and just was in the moment and felt the love in the room. Normally I'm not the Lovey dovey person and Cristina would kick my ass if she knew what I was thinking but I love Derek and I know he loves me. Yes he hurt me but I couldn't imagine this part of my life without him. I love the physical contact we are sharing right now it feels like what we did on a daily basis. I made the right decision with taking him back and moving forward with him.
I break the hug and tell him how much I appreaciate the homemade dinner and all the thought he put into this
After completing my nightly routine I get settled into bed and i stare at the ceiling , tonight went great I feel that Derek and I are beginning to get back to normal ish again and it makes me happy plus the kids love having Derek home. I drift to sleep wondering what if I made a different decision and didn't take take him back , what if , what if , WHAT IF.......

Sorry for taking so long to update , it's a busy time right now for school but after exams are over and everything settles down I'm going to try to update at least once a week. Comment what you guys think :)
~ Vanessa