The carters (eastenders fanfic)

Chapter 44

Linda's pov
Shirley and my mum arrived shortly after and we were let in to see Jessica we all decided to take it in turns going in to talk to her and I was going in first. I walked in and saw my baby girl lying  in the bed so fragile hooked up to loads of machines, it pained me to see her like this. "Hey Jess it's mum, the doctors are saying that you're not going to make it but I guess that's probably what you wanted you wouldn't have done it otherwise. I wish I had known how much pain you were in, you could've come to me and told me, that's what I'm here for. I'm here to be worried when your hurt and hold you when your upset. I know that things were hard after everything that happened with dean and I understand why you did this I wish I didn't have to but I do. I'm not angry with you Jess and if you really don't want to wake up and get better that's fine because I'll know that you're not hurting anymore. But I want you to know that I love you so much and I'm going to miss so so much, I'm so happy that I got to have you as a daughter and I'm sorry that you had to go through  what you went through no one your age should have to go through that and if I could go back and change it I would. I would do anything to not be in this situation right now. I'm going to go now so everyone else can come in and talk to you. I love you so much Jess, to infinity..." I got up and walked out of the room wishing that I didn't have to leave her but I knew everyone else had to have a chance to say goodbye. One by one everyone went in to say goodbye and after a couple hours everyone had finished. Mick and I decided that we would go and sit with Jessica once everyone had said goodbye so she wasn't alone. As we walked towards the door alarms started going off in Jessica's room and suddenly doctors started to rush in. We watched in the window as they did cpr on her. Apart of me wants it to be over for her sake it is clear that she doesn't want to be here  but I don't want to lose my little girl. After doing cpr for a few minutes they stopped, we looked towards the doctors hopeful that she was ok but she wasn't. They called time of death and she was gone. My beautiful baby girl was gone. Mick and I both fell the floor in tears. With the realisation that we were never going to see Jessica again, this was it, this was the end of her story.

A/n hey guys this is the final chapter of this book I have really enjoyed writing it and I hope you guys have enjoyed reading it. I really wanted it to end with just Linda's pov so that's why she is the only one talking in the chapter. I really hope you guys enjoyed this book, let me know what you thought.
Danielle x