The Distance of Love

chapter 3: I make the first move

 It was Febuary now and around this time Valentine's day was coming up an neither me or Matthew had a valentine.So one night we were talking about a pokemon that was shaped like a heart a luvdisc.We figured plushes like that would be made for us pokemon nerds. And we both could sew so we decided to make a luvdisc plush for eachother with mine I sent a scetch of one with it.I waited by the mailbox forever waiting for his to come which was shiny so his was yellow and along with his plush came a hand written note that said "Flareons are red,Vaporeons are blue,Eevees cute but not as cut as you."Also the letter included a poem that said :"Fire stones are red ,Waterstones are blue.If you were a pokemon I'd chose you ,Your smile brightens my day more then a dazzling gleam.Like Ash and Pikachu,we'd make a perfect team.Your eyes glimmer just like a dawnstone.And with you by my side ,I'll never feel alone .You're more legendary then Celebli,Jirachi,Diance,and Mew.But out of all 721,I chose you.<3". When I read that It made me feel like I actually mattered to someone outside of family for once I didn't go a Valentine's day where I had no valentine.

Then I read what "Matthew had wrote underneath and it filled the void of him not actually being able to spend Valentine's day with me and it said:"To the girl I can call my best friend and the girl I share so much in common with your amazing.<3 Aishiteru<3.I love you. From:Matthew Purdy".And at that point my heart melted I thought to my self does he truly love me or is it an act I mean I've been played before so if he was it was a lost coss but I couldn't help but love him.I mean I could tell him anything I wanted to and he understood and didn't judge but love I thought I love him but does he love me like I love him.So that night I went to bed contemplating over wether or not I should ask him out or not I waited three days before I made my move and then when we talked that night on Febuary 18th of 2016 I asked him to date me.He semed shocked when i did because I belive he would never exspect someone or anyone to fall in love with him one day.But it happened I broke and I decided to ask him man was I nervous to do it I wished I could have done it face to face but over the phone seemed to work just as well.

When I did ask I stuttered he told his parents and the exact words were when I asked for their answer was "Are they fine with it or did they shot lead bricks."They didn't really have a response and that made me even more worried because that usually means they don't like it at all and that scared me.I thought to myself why did I even do this even if I knew his parents were not going to like it.Then it hit me I wouldn't have taken the leap of faith to ask him out.I wanted to have a relationship that last for once I saw the potential in him that I hadn't seen in anyone else that I had dated before he actually was the first person outside of family and close friends to actually give two shits about me and put in effort to see me happy and I was loving every minute of it.I thought to myself I did it I found the pearson I can not let go no matter what and I knew I was not going to find someone like him again and I made sure he wasn't going to find anyone like me and make myself memorable to him and be the one to impact his life in such a way to where he would never let me go because honestly I don't think I could ever live without him at this point I had gotten so attached and then one day I broke down crying because I thought we were not going to work out. Sabrina texted him as I was crying and I knew them Sabrina wants this to happen.

I was on my way back from a friend of my parents house and Matthew had showed me that he finished drawing me as a ghoul from Tokyo ghoul.And then he brought up the fact that I was crying earlier and he said to me what I needed to cheer me up."I will never give up on us and that is a promise."and then he sent me the song "Keep holding on" by Avril Lavigne and it was exactly what I needed I could sleep easy that night knowing I wasn't going to be given up on by somebody for once.I learned that day that I will not give up on him either. I decided no matter what was I going to give up on us I was going to be a trooper and survive this hell I knew I was going t

o be put through;but they always say love is never true if you don't fight for it or don't have the will to put up with all the drama ,nonscence and haters.In the end I don't care if his family hates me I'm not in it for them I'm in it for Matthew in the end. So I will be there with him no matter what and if he needs me I will always be one call or text away .And i he ever needs a pick me up or just someone to make him feel better on a bad day I will be his sholder to cry on and if he has to even yell to take anger out on even if it was not dericted toward me.I from that time on will also be a destresser and what ever ealse he wants me to be I will be.My goal at this point in time was just to make his life alot happier then what it was and I think I'm doing a pretty good job on it.