The Distance of Love

Chapter 25: Christmas Commotion

    This Christmas would be the first Christmas in a year since I had seen Matthew and was actually able to talk to him. No matter what the holidays have always been hard on him and I with the long distance. So we sent our presents put the same day the Friday a week before Christmas because we planned on a video chat on Christmas Eve this was the first year we were able to do. His parents were suprisingly fine with it but they insisted on watching us open our gifts to each other which didn't work to well for me. His parents still make me exstreamly nervous overall. The time of the video chat got moved around a lot so it ended up being at around 4 o'clock in Christmas eve.

   So soon the time of the video chat came and I was really nervous Matthew knew this and tries his best to calm me down but it only worked for before the chat, during the chat was a different story. So we started the chat and I was told to go first opening my gift from him. And it was wrapped in 2 boxes, 2 layers of wrapping paper and then the small gifts were wrapped in wrapping paper it was a pain in the ass to get open bit what was inside was what I was looking for it was 2 pairs of leggings one black and one maroon with black butterflies and a maroon shirt with white butterflies a necklace and earring set with a butterfly theme he said it reminded him of the butterfly tattoo on my back. Then I unwrapped my favorite gift in the package the one handmade by him it was a small body pillow made out of a pant leg of one of his older pairs of jeans I was guessing. The first thing I did when I opened it was hug it and smell it, it did have a smell of him or the house or both but what ever it was I loved the smell. That pillow now sits on my moutian of pillows and I sleep with it every night.  After that it was his turn to open his gifts and cards from me which were all homemade except for the cards. I sent him the gift I wanted to send him last year which was a photo album of all the photos we currently have together even though it isn't many. He loved that and that made me feel good and then he opened the second gift a salt dough hanging hand ordament with our first intials on it that said M+C est. 2016 his dad had said something when he opened it but I didn't even hear what he said and honestly I didn't care that much. Then Matthew opened the last gift which was a kisses picture frame this would end up being his favorite gift out of the 3 I sent him.

   His mom asked him "What's that?" And he said back to her "I'm not going to show you." She saw it and then she said it was cute. That  was a last minute gift I came up with that I knew he would love. I knew he would put it with the newest picture he has of me he put both beside his bed. Somehow I managed to buy the same photo frame twice. I also sent him a bracelet and a keychain which his mom asked for the keychain we both said no she couldn't. When he unwrapped the bracelet he immediately put it on. He had the biggest smile on his face as he was opening my gifts.

    He then asked his parents about prom and they said no it was a transportation issue but they would make up for it. He said "Sorry to disappoint you but you know the issue." It was at this point I got a little upset. I love you too just kept repeating  " It's okay, I already knew, It's okay, I already knew." This only further slipped myself in to sadness after that we hung up the video chat and I broke down crying. I apologized to Matt a crazy amount of times. Even though he said I didn't mess up anything. I got so overwhelmed I had an anxiety attack. The rest of the night would be dedicated to getting me back on track.

   This was something he was used to doing by now. When I finally calmed down we talked happier. When ever I am upset he always sits with me in the dark till I see the light again. He makes everything a little more bearable. I still didn't sleep Christmas Eve though. And that concluded our first Christmas Eve being able to talk again and video chat.