The Distance of Love

Chapter 26: New Year, New Changes we hope

It's New Year's Eve and honestly I was feeling giddy most of the day. This was because I had a video chat with Matt later this night at around 15 minutes before midnight. It would be our first video chat alone since back in August of 2017. Both of us spent the day relaxing and just talking to each other not to much to worry about. There was a lot of remincing going on today mostly by me. Him and I looking back on our better memories. I find myself doing this every year although not intentionally done. I have used this time of year as a time of reflection. Truly, I have never had New Year's resolutions just new hopes for the new year. Things will be busy this new year with Mathew' s change in semester schedule making it 2 nights out of the week we won't be able to talk till 8 one night 9 on another. I am not sure how exactly I will handle that but I will find a way. Most of January leaves me with a very busy bowling schedule I won't be catching a break till the last 2 weeks of January which is around when Matt goes back to college. So his schedule winds up and mine winds down seems to be how it always goes but we have made it work before.

For this New Year , I am hoping I can see him more possibly and him and I can video chat more often rather than just texting because I can only get so far with texting and misunderstandings happen very easily. Although I have a bowling match on his birthday I am hoping we can work in a video chat it's an away match so I won't be getting home till around 7 or 8 that night so we can still make it work I will just have to do my homework at a later time. That is if we can even get the chat. It is still like pulling teeth with his parents sometimes but they are better than what they used to be.

Some how I managed to hold myself together through the shit show we call 2018 or at least most of it. I may have broken down a lot and when I say a lot that is not an understatement it was my worst anxiety year ever. Would I change mine and Matthew's story for the world? Your awnser is: To be honest no I wouldn't it is what has shaped us into the couple we are today. If we didn't have the tears the hardships the happy moments, the small fights and disagreements and the worrying about each other than we wouldn't be us. So many people talk to me and say Matthew and I are relationship goals, but the thing that cones to my mind and what I normally respomd to them with is, Well if you want a relationship that lasts like Matthew's and mine you really have to work for it. It never came easy we still fight battles everyday. Loyalty is a key component so if your not loyal now start there. Respect your partner for all he or she does and don't be afraid to say thank you. And lastly just persevere no matter what. Good things come to those who wait.

So Matthew and I started the video chat around 11:45, 15 minutes before midnight just like we planned. Although it started off a little rough like it always does the first time doing anything in a while. His siblings popped in and out so did mine. What him and I talked about was really just what wishes we had as a couple for the new year. Which our biggest one was see each other in person again after over a year of not seeing each other it is nagging both of us. We also would like to talk more rather than text it's what him and I started on and we would like to keep it. Video chatting brings us closer. No one knows the power of a video chat until it is the closest thing you can get to actually seeing that person.

We video chatted for almost 45 minutes something we haven't done in a long time. I will say we probably both really enjoyed it. I wasn't able to watch the ball actually drop but he just counted down the time for me so it was almost like I was there with him. My mom popped in to tell him happy New Year not that I minded but I realized then that her and I are like twins. I am definitely her mini in looks just not in personality, I am a lot more calm then she is that is until you make me angry. But we sat talked and brought in the first 25 minutes of the New Year together it felt nice I just hope we get more than thoes 25 minutes seeing each other in the new year. As long as him and I have the support we need I can guarantee you we will succeed in our journey. Love will go the distance and find it's way. We can't wait till we can close the distance once and for all. We only have about 2 years left till we can and we can't wait. Let's hope it goes by fast but not too fast. With him hours feel like mere minutes to me he makes me lose track of time and forget my worries. I can't wait till I can be with him every single day of my life.