Cather and Levi

Fangirl: Cath and Levi

Cath's POV

As Levi and I are eating dinner (ribs and mashed potatoes made by the lovely chef himself), I find myself wondering about how I ended up so lucky. He's such a kind, easygoing, sweet guy that us being together still feels like a dream. We've been together so long though, that now, I could never imagine my life without him. It's been a year since I graduated, and I've been living with Levi in a house by his ranch. Don't get me wrong. I still love the guy with all my heart, yet I still find myself thinking every morning, about what I could have possibly done to end up so lucky.

"What are you thinking about sweetheart?" He asks.

"How'd you know I was thinking about anything?" I ask in response.

"Because I know you Cather."

"Well, honestly I was thinking about how lucky I am to have such an amazing guy like you in my life," I answer truthfully.

"Funny," Levi says, a small (actually it's Levi, who am I kidding? A HUGE) smile playing across his face."Because I always wonder the same thing when I think about you."

***

That night, as I'm brushing my teeth, getting ready for bed, I hear a light knock at the door. Levi. I quickly rinse out my mouth and put the toothbrush down, back into the holder.

"Come in," I say. What is he up to now? I wonder.

"Hey sweetheart," he says softly as he comes over, pulling me close, and kissing my forehead. It's amazing that such a small gesture can still make my cheeks flush, even after 4 years of being together. "I wanted to talk to you about something."

"What's that?" I ask, surprised by the sincerity in his voice.

"Well, I've been thinking, and umm, you know, we've been together for a few years and ugh, we've never really talked about our future,"

"What about our future," I ask, not sure where he's going with this, but hearing a slight hint of nervousness in his voice.

"Well, we've never really talked about umm, getting married,"

Married? Levi is talking about getting married?!? It's only crossed my mind a few times, and I'm surprised he's bringing it up.

"You know I love you Cather. I really do. With all of my heart," he says, pulling me into a deeper embrace.

"I know. And I love you too. but I don't think I'm ready for this yet," I respond, wishing that I didn't sound so scared and that my voice wasn't shaking so much.

"I don't mean right now," Levi explained. " I mean in the future. When were a little older. I'm sorry. I should've never brought it up."

"No, no! I'm just nervous. We've never really talked about getting married and it just surprised me. That's all." As I say this, a wave of relief washes over his face, but he still has a defeated look in his eyes, that breaks my heart.

"Let's talk about this some other time," he suggests

"Sure" I reply, trying to make my voice happier, as I head back to our bedroom.

***

It's around midnight, but I haven't been able to fall asleep. I just can't shake the feeling that Levi's mad about our earlier conversation. I didn't mean to upset him in any way, but I think I might have. As I toss and turn, trying to get comfortable, I accidentally wake Levi.

"Sorry," I mumble half asleep.

"Hey," he says. This gets my attention, so I roll over to face him. He sounds sad; like if I could see his face, his signature grin would be gone. "You've been really quiet ever since I mentioned getting married. I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to push you into anything you weren't ready for."

"Don't be sorry. I was the one who acted like a jerk. And I feel terrible about it," I reply

"It's not a big deal. You were just scared, and that's normal," he says, with such a caring voice, I can't help but smile.

"Come here," he says. This time I can hear the characteristic smile playing on his lips. I shift closer to him in our bed. He kisses me on the lips and I kiss him back. He breaks away only for a second. "You are the most beautiful girl I have ever met, and nobody will ever compare to you."

And with that, we fall asleep in each other's arms.

***

When I wake up the next morning, I notice that Levi's side of the bed is empty. That's weird. Normally he gets up later than I do when he doesn't have to work. But then I smell it. Breakfast. When I get downstairs, I'm really impressed. Levi has prepared a huge breakfast for the two of us. Pancakes, eggs, sausage, hash browns, and a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice.

"Morning sweetheart," he says when he sees me.

"Levi you seriously didn't have to do this," I say, shocked.

"Cather, you never let me treat you, so I figure I have to do it without you knowing," he replies. "And on top of that, I'm really, really sorry about last night."

"I know. And I am too," I say. After we're done cleaning up the dishes, Levi suggests we go ice skating.

"I can't even skate!" I tell him, slightly embarrassed.

"You can't?" He asks, shocked. "Well I say it's time for you to learn."

"Levi! No!" I complain. "I'll look pathetic out there."

"No you won't because you'll be with me. Alright?" He asks

"Sure," I reply. "I'll try it but if I can't do it your taking me home." After we buy me some skates, we head to the rink. As soon as we get there, my stomach drops. I'm really, exceptionally nervous.

"It's beautiful," I say, trying to calm my nerves. And it really is. It's an outdoor skating rink with lights and christmas decorations all around. We've got the whole rink to ourselves, except for some kids playing on a snow pile.

"Perfect," Levi says. "Nobody will be here to see you fall!"

"Thanks," I reply. "That really boosts my self esteem." After finally learning how to somewhat skate, and falling a million times, I can make it around the rink with the help of Levi's hands. However, on my second time around, I started going down, and grabbed for Levi to hold onto. Unfortunately this plan didn't work out so well, and we both tumbled to the ice.

"Levi I am sooo sorry!" I tell him, as I feel my cheeks turn beet red. "Oh my god, are you okay? Did I hurt you? Are you bleeding?"

"Cather, I'm fine. Now would you just shut up and kiss me?" I'm so surprised by this that I don't even have time to think, I just kiss him. Right there lying on top of him, on the ice. It was probably quite a sight, now that I think about it.

When we get back home later that afternoon, I tell Levi I don't feel well and that I'm going to bed. It wasn't a lie, because I didn't feel too well, but I didn't go to bed. I just wanted to be alone for a bit, but didn't know why. I read Snowbaz fan fiction all night, until Levi came to bed.

"You okay?" He asked. I could detect a hint of concern in his voice.

"Yeah," I reply. "I just didn't feel well earlier, that's all."

"I understand," he says. "It happens to all of us. I mean, you were probably just exhausted from all that skating." This was meant as I joke, but I don't laugh. Instead I just close my eyes in an attempt to fall asleep.

"Goodnight," Levi whispered.

"Goodnight Levi." I mumble, half asleep.