One shots

Transgender

{ Okay I had a thought about this song and I decided what if, this song, was about a transgender human coming out. Like, even just the phrase, "I'm just a lost boy, not ready to be found" the world isn't ready for this person yet, he's just a lost boy. It makes sense in my brain okay read on.~ Lex}

"I need to tell you something."

{As the smile fell from your face I  with it. Our faces blue.)

"Get out. Freak."

Rejection. Again. Why does no one understand? Now I have no one again.

{There's a heart stain on the carpet I left it, I left it with you.}

I shouldn't have told you. This is my fault. You're right to have me leave I'm sorry.

{Yeah the truth is that I'm sorry, though I told you not to worry.}

It's okay. I'll be okay. I understand. I'm okay.

{I'm just some dumb kid trying to kid myself that I got my shit together.}

I'll just leave before I try and stop you from abandoning me. You'll leave when the morning comes.

{So get running, won't you hurry. While it's light out while it's early.}

I'll leave before I start to miss you. Miss this. Before I change my mind and try to make you understand.

{Before I start to miss any part of this and change my mind whatever.}

Tears spill down my cheeks as the door slams behind me. I close my eyes and dream, allowing myself to be distracted from the pain for a few moments.

{I say I wanna settle down, build your hopes up like a tower. I'm giving you the run around.}

I don't care what they say. Yes, I'll admit, it hurts like hell. But they can't change who I am. They don't understand. The world just isn't ready for my secret yet.

{I'm just a lost boy, not ready to be found.}

Then I met him.

And for a few months it was wonderful.

It took a few months before he discovered the bandages, a few wonderful months I allowed myself to believe he would be different. Before he discovered my secret.

This broken boy. This beaten, shy, quiet, curious, wonderful, magical boy.

Understood. He accepted me.

But there was one thing he never did understand, that had nothing to do with my secret. Well, not this one anyways.

{So what are you waiting for? Cause someone could love you more. I'm just a lost boy.}

He didn't understand I only wanted him. He didn't understand how much love and goodness he deserved.

{I'm just a lost boy lost boy.}

We both are.

I cried as we clutched each other. I finally found the one person who accepted me, who loved me. And he finally found love. He finally found what he deserves. And we both fell asleep in each other's love and embrace.

I smiled to myself as my eyelids grew heavy and sleep overtook my consciousness.

{I'm just a lost boy, ready to be found.}

{Also please don't use bandages, be safe, take care of yourself.~Lex}