There's so much more to raising a baby than I could have ever imagined. Sure, you expect little sleep, lots of late night feedings, and a fussy baby who you desperately want to calm but have no idea how.
Easton is almost a month old now, isn't that crazy? It feels like just yesterday I was sitting in the bathroom of a hotel in Philadelphia crying on the floor because I was paralyzed in fear. All of my life, I had the same picture in my mind every young girl grows up with - date, proposal, wedding, children. My career was just beginning, I'd been with this man for less than a year, and I knew no one would accept me or this baby.
Looking back, I hate myself for doubting my family's love and support. My pregnancy brought my closer to everyone and helped me realize the huge support system I have. My parents would never abandon me, but more importantly, Ben would never abandon me.
Speaking of Ben, he went back to Philadelphia three weeks ago. We talk everyday, and he is so obsessed with his son. Easton even smiles whenever he hears Ben's voice over the phone. I definitely miss having him here in Dallas. Our baby deserves to grow up near his father, and I could use the help at 2am. But, Ben is pursuing a career and living his dreams out. I couldn't be more proud and I know Easton will one day understand why his dad wasn't around much.
That's all for now. I wish I could share more with you guys, but the chaos has been pretty consistent. Early mornings, late nights, and spending 24 hours a day with sweet Easton. Talk to you guys soon :) all the love!
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