Gone Forever: a three days grace fan fic: book three

chapter three

most of this chapter was written by XxxThreeDaysGracexxX

Matts pov

I was watching tv when Neil called.

"Hello?" I said.

"Matt its Neil."

"Oh, hey Neil whats up?" I said.

"Max killed herself. I just wanted you to know that." he said before he hung up.

I was speechless. I couldn't believe that she killed herself. I mean, I knew that she was getting bullied, but I was one of those people that was bullying her. I called her mean words, I made her life hell.  I just felt horrible. I was one of the reasons she killed herself. and I felt horrible.

I left the tv on as I walked out of the house, grabbing my keys and wallet on the way, I climbed into the car. I was going to make it up to Max. even if she was dead. even if its too late.

.......

I arrived at the cemetery about ten minutes later. a bundle of roses in my hand. and as I walked up to Max's grave I couldn't help but let a tear escape from my eye. I was sad, not only because a girl killed herself, but because I caused her death.

I kneeled in front of her grave, setting the bundle of roses onto her grave, I let the tears fall out of my eyes.

"Hey Max..." I choked on my words.

"If you could hear me now, I just wanted to say that I am so sorry....... I never meant for this to happen. I never wanted this to happen, I feel horrible. I feel like shit. I just wanted to say that im sorry. im sorry that I caused you to feel depressed, im sorry that I bullied you. im just sorry. plain and simple. I should've know you were depressed. I...... I had a friend once. She was the sweetest person in the world. Then.... she started to get bullied. she would cry herself to sleep every night. then, one day I got a call from her. she said that she was going to kill herself. I lived right next door to her so I ran out of my house and tried to open the front door. I then climbed onto the roof, and went to her window. I tried opening that, and then, I saw her hang herself. I had a chance to stop her, but I couldn't. she died right before I came to watch you that one day last year. and I guess, I guess that I felt so horrible, I felt that terrible, that I took my pain out on someone. im sorry."

Neils pov

I had just fallen asleep when I was woken up by Barry.

"Wake up. We're going to a concert." he said.

........

an hour later, we were standing back stage at a My chemical romance concert. We were going to open for them. I didn't know about this until the last moment, so I was surprised when Barry told me this on the way there.

"So what are we going to play?" Brad asked me.

I thought about it for a moment before saying, "Gone Forever."

.........

"Hey guys, were three days grace. and we are going to start this My Chemical Romance concert by singing Gone Forever." I said into the microphone that was hanging in front of me.

there was a moment of silence before we started.

"Don't know what's going on

Don't know what went wrong

Feels like a hundred years I

Still can't believe you're gone

So I'll stay up all night

With these bloodshot eyes

While these walls surround me with the story of our life

I feel so much better

Now that you're gone forever

I tell myself that I don't miss you at all

I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now

That you're gone forever

Now things are coming clear

And I don't need you here

And in this world around me

I'm glad you disappeared

So I'll stay out all night

Get drunk and fuckin' fight

Until the morning comes I'll

Forget about our life

I feel so much better

Now that you're gone forever

I tell myself that I don't miss you at all

I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now

That you're gone forever

First time you screamed at me

I should have made you leave

I should have known it could be so much better

I hope you're missing me

I hope I've made you see

That I'm gone forever

And now it's coming clear

That I don't need you here

And in this world around me

I'm glad you disappeared

I feel so much better

Now that you're gone forever

I tell myself that I don't miss you at all

I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now

That you're gone forever

And now you're gone forever

And now you're gone forever '