He is in love with me, with me. Why me? Why would this beautiful understanding man be in love with me? I am broken and he is just so amazing. He could find someone so much better than me to be with yet here I am with him, the man who is in love with me. I'm trying to comprehend how this makes me feel but all I can do is keep thinking of him telling me he loves me.
I guess that means I am happy about it. But what if he takes it back or changes his mind, what if he finds out about Richard and doesn't want me because I'm so used and disgusting. Maybe I should tell him, if he really loves me he will stay. "Tate, I need to tell you something." I mumble holding on to his hand tightly so he can't get up and leave. "What is it Snowflake?" He asks sounding a little nervous.
"I'm broken, I know you have realized that already but honestly I am more broken than I think you understand. My dad died when I was young and when my mom remarried the man did things to me." I get out before I start choking on my words and a tears start forming in my eyes. "I-I never wanted to let him touch me like he did but after so long I got tired of fighting back and realized it was easier to let him finish without a fight. He did it for so long it only stop when I ran away on my 18th birthday to here. All the nightmares I have are because of him, they are mostly just flashbacks." I say and stop when I look up and see Tate's eyes glowing bluer than I have ever seen before.
"I don't care how broken you are Haven. I am never going to stop trying to put you back together as best as I can. I love you, you are who I want to make memories with because I know if you are a part of them they will be treasured, I want to be able to call you mine and know that no one will be able to know you like I do, I want to discover myself with you. Your past doesn't change how I feel. I just want to be able to be a part of your future." He tells me and by the end I am crying into his shoulder and holding onto him.
I want to tell him I feel the same but I can't. All I want is to be able to love him the way he loves me but I am holding myself back. I don't want too, I just can't not. It's all Richards fault, I can't love how I should because he broke me. It's one of the worse things he has done to me. Even though I have escaped his grasp he is still torturing me without even knowing it. "I want to tell you I feel the same but I can't. I know I will it's just so hard for me and it breaks me knowing that." I say in between my tears.
"Haven I don't care how long it takes, just knowing one day you will love me like I love you is enough for me." He says lifting my head up and looking me in the eyes. I smile at him and lean in a kiss him on the lips for only a second before I pull back shocked and see Tate's also shocked but happy face. "How would you feel if I told you that was my first kiss?" He asks me making me look even more shocked. There is no way a man like Tate hasn't had tons of girls wanting him.
"No way." I say shaking my head doubting it. He smiles at me. "I was taught from a young age to respect women and wait for the perfect one for me. I've had a lot of girls interested in me but none have caught my attention till you." I blush as I smile at him. I don't reply but lean into him for warmth and comfort as he starts stroking my hair. We stay there for a while just wrapped in each other until the snow starts to fall hard and head back to the castle.
When we reach the door I see Nana looking out from the kitchen window smiling at us. I wave at her and she winks at me before walking at and letting the curtain fall back down. We keep walking to the door but suddenly I stop and just look around the land and at the castle realizing for the first time since my dad has died I have somewhere I feel safe and where I want to be. I finally have somewhere I am wanted and I belong. I finally have a family I want to be a part of.
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So I am thinking of making the next chapter in Tate's point of view so we can see into his mind a little more. What do you guys think?
