Love { Calum Hood }

10.) Issues

Savannah's P.O.V

"Sav, you have to go to school. It's been two days already." My mum said as she walked into my room for the fourth time already this morning.

"No mum. Just, one more day please." I asked and she let out a sigh.

"Fine, but you have to go tomorrow or I'm taking your car keys." She said closing my bedroom door behind her.

I groaned into my pillow once she was gone.

I guess I should just stay up now since I'm wide awake anyway. I guess I'll take a shower since I haven't in two days, since I haven't let my bed for anything other than the bathroom since I ran out of the bowling alley.

I haven't eaten anything other than an apple since then either.

I'm just, heart broken.

Can I even say that? Can I even love someone I barley know?

Of course I can. It's not about how long you know them, it's about how they make you feel. And Calum just has a way of making me feel like a human again. I don't feel like a piece of meat that boys are staring to waiting to devour. I feel normal. I feel like a girl. I feel like myself.

And the worst part about that is, I can't have him.

Because Kady beat me to it, and after the other night, she isn't gonna leave him.

I rolled myself out of bed and I headed to the bathroom, plugging my phone into the speaker. I turned on a playlist full of songs that explain how I feel right now before turning on the shower, making sure the water is hot.

It's almost hot enough to cook me alive, like a lobster.

I usually don't take long hot showers, but I feel like I want to today.

I want my outside to feel the same as my inside.

I washed my hair, face, and body before just standing under the hot water for a moment listening to my music.

I realized the lyrics explained my feels perfectly, and it caused me to breakdown, and before I even realized what was happening I dropped down the shower floor and curled up in a ball, crying as the water flowed down my body.

Me and my heart we go issues

That couldn't be more true.

The issue is, I know that I can't love him because he already has a girl to love him. He won't ever love me back so I am just gonna get myself hurt, but my heart is pulling me to him.

"Vanna? Sweetie, are you in there?" I heard Quinn's voice behind the door.

"Q? You're supposed to be at school." I said.

"I left once I realized you skipped again. I wanted to make sure you're okay. You haven't spoke to me or Ash since you ran out on us the other day." She said and I turned off the shower, wrapped myself in a towel and whipped he door open.

"Do I look okay to you?" I snapped as she came into view, Ashton behind her sitting on my bed.

"Jeez Sav, what's going on with you?" Quinn asked.

"I'm in love Quinn. I'll fucking admit it. I'm in love with someone who will probably never like me back. There. Happy now?" I snapped again, slamming the door shut.

I slid my back down the door until I was sitting on the floor.

"We can fix this Savannah. Don't tear yourself apart."

"How Ash? He has Kady. He doesn't need me."

"Come out here and let Quinn do your make-up. That always cheers you up. Once you're happy again, we can figure out what to do next." He said and I rolled my eyes.

"I don't think that can fix me, but we can try." I said