Am I really straight?

◇《 08.》◇

×× ♡ ×× Ryan POV. ×× ♡ ××

Yesterday's match was awesome and exhausting all at once. Our team played really well. I'm not saying that the other team didn't play with all that they had, it's just that we had been practising all summer for this semesters football games. I used, even more, energy and power than I normally do all because I wanted to impress the guy I like. Shit, I sound like a love-struck teenage girl! For I have been an idiot yesterday my muscles are aching like someone is stabbing needles into them.

After the game, the guys and I went to celebrate our victory. We went to the same restaurant we always do after matches. I was questioned about hugging Nate but I was lucky enough because the food arrived at that exact moment and all attention flew off of me. Aaron, however, did not drop it so quickly, he kept giving me knowing smiles and it creeped me out. I know he knows but man it was still creepy. My dad went home after he congratulated us. Aaron and I don't live far from each other so we went home together.

" You have to be more subtle, dude," he said after walking a bit in silence.

" About what? "

" About your huge ass crush on Nate. If those no brain teammates of ours are asking about it then it's getting a bit way too visible. "

" That's not true! I just hugged him for heaven's sake! "  I said a bit enraged.

" Guys don't just hug other guys. " he sighed " Look I know it's hard not to do anything considering you being head over heels for him. I'm just saying that you should tune it down. "

" You're right but it's not so easy... "

" I understand, trust me I do... " He said hanging his head low. As to why he looked so sad while saying this I have to find out.  " I'm quite shocked that Nate hadn't noticed it, though. "

" I'm glad he didn't. " I said laughing, a bitter laugh. I'm happy he didn't found out because I'm afraid of rejection but I'm also disappointed because if he did this would be easier. Plus I wouldn't have to have these talks about my love life with my best friend or my maybe I would but with a different tone and topic.

I eventually got home around midnight and just sprawled out on my bed, I didn't even have the power to shower nor change clothes. I didn't even remember how I got up the stairs. I was sleeping a matter of seconds. It was like I had drunk a whole bottle of whisky. I admit a drunk a few beers but that's it.

" Sweety, it's time to wake up! " I heard my mum from downstairs. I turned around to look at the clock on my bedside table and it was way too late to go to school now. What does she want from me then?... Did I miss school?

" I'm up! " I yelled at her. I didn't bother with anything and just went downstairs still in my clothes from yesterday. I went straight to the living room because I know mum will be there watching TV. I yawned and scratched my neck while going to my mum.

" Morning, mum. " I said and hugged her. " Why didn't you wake me for school? "

" Morning, honey. I tried but you were like a log, you weren't even moving. " she laughed. " I woke you up now because that cute friend of yours called. "

" Who? " I asked dumbfounded and when it came down to me I widened my eyes. " Nate? "

" Yes, he said he will bring you your homework," she said then smelled the air near me. " You better shower before he gets here. You stink like a polecat! "

" Ok, ok I'm going. " I said while shooing her away from me. I ran up the stairs back to my room and I was standing in the shower in no time. I was there for quite the time, getting rid of the sweat and enjoying the hot water against my skin. When I finally got out I was about to put on new clothes when I noticed I didn't bring anything I could put on. So I wrapped a pink towel (don't say anything, there was only that one in there) around my waist and headed back to my room. Where I had a visitor who got here early as it seems. My guest was standing before my window staring out but turned around when I arrived. His eyes trailed over my half-naked body before his face got a bit red and looked down instantly.

" Hi, Ryan ... " Greeted Nate with an awkward wave and his head hung low. I just continued standing there staring straight at him and my mouth opening and closing. I must have looked like a fish. Well ... am I completely screwed?