notes to you

3 // a feeling too intense

mercy - shawn mendes

"you've got a hold on me, don't even know your power"

help me break the chains you're not even holding
free me from the ropes you never tied me in
please, please, please
stop with the torture, my heart won't stop crumbling
end my misery, anybody who is listening, why does it hurt so much?
i was never good at letting go, please set me free

"i fall when i'm around you"

i don't know what hurts more,
whether it is your untouchable presence
or if it's your scorching absence
i don't know if talking to you hurts more
or listening to to the silence does
oh, what have you done to me?

"please have mercy on me, take it easy on my heart"

i don't have words left to say, only people waiting to leave
i don't have tears to shed, just my soul to break
i don't have anything to do, just people giving up on me
anybody reading, please be gentle, please be patient
anybody listening, know that i'm sorry for not being alright
someone watching, i'm asking you to give up on me because i've done that too many times

"even though you don't mean to hurt me, you keep tearing me apart"

i know you're not bad, i know, i know, i know
you're the best person i've met but looking at you hurts
tell me how to forget you, tell me how to let you go
help me with this, somebody, anybody
hold me till it's over because i can't get up, please

"consuming all the air inside my lungs, ripping all the skin from off my bones"

how do i let anyone in when i'm not good inside?
i've got my blood on my hands, it's all dark inside
i keep running, running, running to nowhere, no body
take me away to somewhere i can't be found,
somewhere i won't keep hurting myself

i'm a puppet on your string : i need you to set me free

how do i cut myself off from you, tell me because i can't take it anymore
tell me how i stop the walls closing in on me because it's getting harder to breathe
everyone has left because it got too much for them
i keep tearing myself apart, i feel my demons feeding
save me from being consumed from this void

-s