notes to you

21 // another time

perhaps that's all we were meant to be
just meant to exchange symphonies.
looking at the stars meant nothing
when you held my hand thinking only of her.
tell me out of all those times you stayed up late
how many nights trying to catch her eye
and you did.
you looked at her as if she put the stars in the sky
but darling did you forget
i burst in my existence and scattered around
so my broken pieces would stay with you.
tell me how many nights you watched cars pass by
when her voice echoed over the phone
your heart was giddy though your eyes were ridden with sleep
and all i could do was smile sadly.
you noticed me but never saw me
and i chased you wildly to the ends of everywhere
and it took me no where.
so tell me what happened that one night you hugged me
and the other night you wouldn't meet my eye
tell me where we lost ourselves
because i'm trying to desperately grasp on to myself.
i don't have any more pieces to give
so i ask you kindly, don't take the last one, it's all i have left.
maybe i'll give it to you when i know i can
or give it to someone who won't throw it away.
i'm sorry i don't have anything to spare
and when you're ready, if you're ready,
you can have all of me, i wouldn't mind.

-s