Lovesick

Chapter One. I made a big mistake.

A/N It's been one month since we left Andy. It's now two days before christmas break. 

 I still look back to the day that we left him at the airport. It feels like just yesterday. Bradley and I had decided not to become exclusive till he came to visit and see how things stand between us. We skyped every night like we said we would for the first week after I came back. But then he started to get busy with school and so did I. We had finals to study for. I had a lot of late night study sessions with my study group.

Brad had gotten so mad at me one night because I was out with three of the football players at dinner after I helped them study. He told me that I was probably cheating on him. I had to remind him we weren't exclusive even if I was. Which I wasn't. But the boy needs to know that he doesn't own me. So he went on a date with a sleaze ball the next night to remind me that we weren't exclusive. It hurt my heart. So I didn't talk to him for two whole days. He texted and called a lot. I missed him. I played our song a lot while I studied.

As the days kept going we talked less and less. I was so engulfed in my own issues I didn't bother to ask him about his. I guess I was being self obsorbed. I went to a party that night with Allie to let loose before finals and I got super hammered. We had been doing jello shots, body shots, keg stands and we did lots of beer pong. I partied so hard. When I woke up the next morning I was in bed with one of the football guys I tutored. His name was Tom. He was that typical sexy quarterback. I was not wearing underwear under my dress. Shit shit shit thats what I kept saying to myself. I stood up and looked for my panties.

I found them and slipped them on and put my heels back on and grabbed my purse and left. I grabbed my phone. I had 20 missed calls from Brad. I couldn't talk to him. I just slept with another guy. I felt so guilty. I leaned over into a bush and threw up everywhere. That's the last time I go to a frat party. I walked back to my dorm and showered. I put on sweats and checked my voicemails. They were all from Brad. Ranging from where are you to I'm freaking out Allie doesn't even know where you are. The last one made my stomach churn though.

He told me he was getting on a plane to come and see me early. He would be here tonight at 6. I threw up in my trash can again. Me and Brad hadn't had sex yet! What was I going to say? Hey honey I know we are waiting to have sex so I got really drunk last night and slept with the quarterback hey lets go to dinner now. What the hell am I going to do!? I'm a horrible person. Allie walked into our room and sighed she changed the garbage for me. 

"Allie I slept with Tom last night..." I told her refusing to look into her eyes. She sat down beside me. "I know you were so drunk he had to carry you. It could technically be considered rape." She said and I shook my head. 

"I am not getting into that. No I have always been attracted to Tom. I guess I just needed someone. Me and Bradley haven't been talking. He's going to be here by 6. What do I tell him Al?" 

"Tell him you were drunk. He can't be mad since you aren't dating right?" 

"True.." and with that she got up and left to go on her date with some new guy.

I opened up my closet door and looked through some clothes. I grabbed a plain black long sleeve vneck tee and some flared jeans and I threw them on. I put on some chucks and then grabbed my purse. It was already 4. I did my makeup and put my hair in a braid and then threw on my coat. I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth real quick and left. I got in my jeep and drove to Ren's place. I needed to get my brothers opinion on this. I walked up the stairs and opened the door. He was in his living room reading his text book and studying. I walked over and sat down next to him. I let out a big over exagerated sigh. He looked up at me and closed his book. 

"What Andy?" 

"I cheated on a guy but we're not dating and he's going to be landing in 2 hours from California and he wants to see if I'm okay because I haven't talked to him in a long time.. What do I do?" 

"Oh hmm.. Well if it was me and I really cared about the girl I would want to know. But if I was the one who cheated I wouldn't want to risk losing her.. But I still wouldn't be able to live with myself if I hadn't told her. Andy do what your heart tells you to do. Not your head. Not me. Your heart." He said and then opened his book back up. I sighed 

"You're no help Ren." I told him and got up he chuckled and I left.

I went to a coffee place and got some coffee to think. I was lost in thought when I looked at my phone. Time to go to the airport. I got in my car and went to the airport. Parked in the short term parking and went inside. Do I run up and kiss him? Do I hug him? Do I just stand here awkwardly? I hate my head sometimes. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply. My heart is beating crazily at the thought of kissing him again. My god do I miss him. And what if he gets mad and never wants to kiss me again after I tell him? The run and jump into his arms and kiss him it is.

People started filing out from the terminal and then I saw him he was looking for me. I ran up to him and he opened his arms I jumped into his arms and gave him a kiss. I was so happy to see him. He'll forgive me I know it. He had to stay at a hotel till I was out of school in 3 days. Then we would go to my parents home. We went to his hotel to check him in. We were going up to his room and we got his suitcase in and then he shut the door. I pulled him onto the bed. 

"Brad I need to tell you something." 

"Me too baby." 

"Me first this could change how you see me..." 

"I don't think so but okay?" 

"I was at a frat party last night... I was really drunk like really drunk. I guess I had sex with one of the guys I tutored.." I told him and he was just staring at me.. No expression just staring.