ʟᴀ ᴛʀɪᴩ // 𝐠𝐧𝐫

25 - I Love You More

Effy's PoV

Life is something so fragile and it can change in a blink.

It can change with a yes just as it can change with a no.

My life changed with an yes, the answer to a question. It wasn't a real question. It was an invitation.

Axl appeared in my house a month ago, saying he wanted me to go with him back to LA for a month.

And I said that I would come with him.

Sally made me say yes. If it wasn't her, I wouldn't be here right now. She saved me, Axl saved me and Duff saved me.

They saved me for the person I am not. The person that is afraid of taking risks and step on foreign ground.

I'm not like that.

When Axl showed up on my apartment, I was turning into that person again. The person I thought I had left in my past.

Two weeks later, it happened again. I was so hopeless. But Duff helped me.

Now I am myself again.

Going on a new adventure, leaving my past behind. The past that could bring me no future.

I'm happy, damn right I am.

I couldn't be more happy right now.

I have plans, for the first time in my life. I've always lived on the edge, without plans or ambitions.

But now I have plans. I want to stop doing drugs and live with Duff. Because whenever I'm with Duff, I'm happy. And that's all I want, is to be happy.

I never thought I would say this in my entire life, but Duff is the love of my life.

He's my light. The one who takes me away from my darkness. The one who puts a smile on my face without a reason. The one I love so much I would do anything for him.

I would die for him, I would kill for him. I would do anything to be beside him and see his smile every day.

I lived in a party. But you know, every party has an end. And I've seen that end three times. After the party it comes the hangover, after the hangover it comes the withdrawal.

And that, is not something you want to experience. I did that myself three times, but thankfully I had someone to take me out of there.

After the third, I don't want to fall in a fourth.

Everything has limits, and we have to learn how to see them before we reach them because when we cross the line, we don't like what's in the other side.

You know, it's like drinking. We can drink, but the size of our hangover the day after, will depend on the quantity we drank the night before.

We can live in a party, we just can't take it to extremes, because there, the consequences will be bigger and we won't like it.

The bigger is the climb, the bigger is the fall it's what they say.

I'm not here giving you a moral lesson. I'm giving you an advice. Something this Trip to LA taught me, something I learnt with my stay here in this beautiful city.