THE CLOSURE

CHAPTER 2

"No good definition of move on when you already move on but you bring the memories together. Must be something going wrong with your move on theory?"

Its  been three weeks since Suzanne move in to the new town when she decided to stay with her bestfriend, Via. Via had promised her that she will help her going through this and get a new job also so that she wont be someone jobless though. She know this is the right decision ever. Suzanne need to move on and get over that person as soon as she can. She will not allowed her night become those nights with tear on eyes anymore. She suddenly remember that one night, the night when she had a sleepless night because she keep crying when she saw something on Simon’s instagram feed. Maybe it was her fault  because if she didn’t try to going through every post from Simon she wont hurt herself, and feel useless again.  Suzanne really cant never figure out where the things going wrong. Maybe it was really cliché but who cares? It was love. She love Simon so much so when you love someone.
The person you loved will be your obsession right? But not until she saw that post and those comments. It was between Simon and his new crush. From the beginning, Suzanne didn’t think that “crushing” term from Simon is only a crush because Simon is not like any other typical guy that everyone ever seen. When he loved, he will love way too hard.
He just good been manipulating everyone surround himself. He never shown that he is actually the most pitiful and saddest guy to everyone.  Suzanne knew that Simon once has been broken by his failed realationship with a girl from their college. From Suzanne view, she want to know Simon better as she never see him like her bestfriends. And maybe that is the reason why Suzanne loved him. It wasn’t a crush term at all  like everyone thought.  Suzanne thought she was really good in hiding the feeling but guess what she is wrong enough.

*sounds of door knocking*

Via is back from her work. There is a lot of work at the office today. Yes, Via is finally biomedic doctor as she want to be like before. She felt so pity to Suzanne as she had  quit her favourite job just to move on from every memories she had before with Simon, She saw Suzanne at the verandah. Suzanne might be thinking about something by the look on her face. And it must be about Simon all over again and afterall its not the good memories she think.

“Hey babe, what are you doing here? It was really cold here so why not lets go inside, we make some coffee and have a talk?”. She know that Suzanne wasn’t really in a good condition when she saw her blurry eyes that start to tear when she look at her face.

“C’mon honey, we get inside and you can tell me everything you want so”, said Via and urgely pull Suzanne hand into the living room. She know the tears is nothing but it is Simon again, Suzanne never been so sad since she had lost his father before. It was four years back then. Yeah, Via know that Suzanne never  really cried that worst  but only when her father is gone before.

“Via, the memories still haunted me by the way and I think that I have been moved on, Im already get over everything about him because its been almost a few months since that night. Ive deleted every conversations, every pictures that I kept before but why the memories still here, it was really hurt, Via. It hurts me until I feel that am I deserve to all of this, I hate him Via, I hate him so much, I don’t know who will take the blame for all of these but it is my fault actually? Is it me, Via. Please tell me that I am. Im the guilty one in this situation.  Or…. Maybe it was Simon’s after all. Yes, maybe he is. Because when he said that he really appreciate me. You know what Via, peoples usually mistaken appreciation term. You couldn’t use appreaciation term for someone that you knew she got the feeling for you huh? No, you cant. Simon never really give me a chance to show the best of me and what he always think about is only his feelings. He is coward. He’s hiding in his shadow and afraid of the truth. He is selfish, Via”,.

Suzanne didn’t stop crying and Via hugged her so tight. Let the worst pass by honey, because the person you think you cant live the life without is actually having fun living the life without you. And maybe we shouldn’t trust anyone easily. And we shouldn’t playing someone’s heart just to see how far we can go. Karma will hit you back in another life and we cant never predict when is all about and what is matter only timing. The timing gonna hit itself right on point.