THE CLOSURE

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

"The timing maybe was right but only if honesty cross the line, and the person is someone else and sometimes you just have to break your heart over and over again to grow well and good"

It is been awhile since they know each other hence so both of them had decided that they should going out together. Suzanne think that this time might be right for her to tell Dan about everything but she will not urge it to be happen though so whatever it is just make it going through the flow. Let just make it happen but lets just not rush, that is!.

Since Suzanne always curious about what been holding on Dan that make him act so weird and he always give a reason behind that. The least he can do is he tried to make Suzanne forget about what she asked about. Suzanne had decided that she gonna give her heart so she must ensure that there was no secret been hiding betweeen them so she wanted to ask Dan about that. She knows that her decision is always come with the consequences so she must prepare her heart for any answer that Dan will given later.

**Suzanne: Dan, I know that I was not supposed to ask you about this but I just dont want to make things become more confuse. So, can I ask you about something?

*a few hours later*

**Dan: Yeah, sure... What is all about?

**Suzanne: Dan you must remember is it? That long time ago you once said to me that whatever it is don't inlvolved the Lois Lane thingy? Whatever is happened between us and you said I can always rely on you whenever I want but I must not cross the line, So, today Dan I wanna know whether the thing that happen between us is actually something and whether that somehow I don't even remember or realize that I have crossed the line.

**Dan: Suzanne listen here, I think that I wasn't somebody that set up a certain guideline for somebody to be friend with me. It just............. It just that I already have someone so I think that as long as it okay we still like yeah contact each other...

**Suzanne: Oh... So, I think that I might get the answer I need from you and I think this the answer I really need the most...My past make me think that it does not that Okay Thing to be friend with someone lover. And it totally not an okay thing if I continue this and I think that let just forget about had happened and we go on our ways.

**Dan: Why should you said like that huh? Hello! Suzanne cmon just wake up please don't just live in the past. The past is nothing. Get a new life Suzanne. Its not a mistake for us to be friend afterall. It just don't cross the line ah I don't want my girlfriend to be mad about this if she getting know about this. Just chill okay. I don't know why but if that was meant that you got a feelin attach towards me. So ridiculously, how can you get that feeling for someone we don't even going out for real yet huh

**Suzanne: Its not about I got that feelin thingy or not Dan, but I think that I have made a decision and I cant continue what have been done before. I'm just tired to take another feeling and to take care of everyone feeling until I tend to neglect mine. I forget to love myself because I love somebody else too much. I give my all cause I do hope they will realized I loved them so much till I forget about myself. Dan, its just not... we cant be friend but I think let just end it here, To take care of feelings sometimes seem a cruel and tiring. Dan, I will always wish you happiness and good;uck with your life, Dan :)

**Dan: But Suzanne,, Why it seem like a goodbye thing from you to me. Just chill Suzanne. Whatever it is, I wish you goodluck in your life too.

...The things between Dan and Suzanne ended there....

Suzanne always have the thought that Dan is different and that is why she is trying to open her heart again to feel love one more time but what had been done by Dan seem like betrayal for her and himself. If Dan choose to be honest and spill the tea from the beginning that he already have someone and never act like he been given something called hope, maybe it will ended like right timing and right person. If from the beginning Dan choose honesty over everything, nobody will hurted the way it ended right?

...Till now, even if they tend to pass by each other, they pretend that they never know each other anymore. It hurts because once Suzanne always have someone that she can rely on and not this time anymore. Dan is currently busy with his usual athlete activities and Suzanne choose to continue the life as usual. They are now only known as a stranger. Suzanne choose this way and she believe this is not the closure she create just to meet the closure for what had happened between her and Simon. She cant think peoples as a medicine because they don't even if they want too. Throughout the year, when her heart being broken again and again she find that everytime they hurted her, she always find herself going back to the path where Simon is there too. She realized that the closure that she need from the start is not within the peoples that carved the journey just for her to meet her own closure. The closure is also not within Simon beacuse the closure itself is between herself. If she didn't to forgive and forget about what had been done by Simon, she will never find herself a closure that she want the most.

"The closure itself is not the words utter but the thing about forgive and forget, you just gotta find it within your heart and yourself and what is important to forget to give yourself, your heart alittle break because sometime to love someone without a break a tiring thing"

-Suzanne, 2018

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