The Feeling Of Love (Shyland Fanfic) COMPLETE

Chapter Fourteen: Saddened But Happy

Shane's POV

Ryland was working overtime at Clevver, so Shaylee and I decided to watch a movie.

"What do you want to watch?" I asked as I pulled out my bucket off movies we all like.

"I dunno. Why don't we watch your short films? Come on, I love them!" As I sighed and have to re-live my shitty-ass childhood, we go onto YouTube and watch my short films.

Shay is almost 13, which kinds scares me. But the one thing that I got over, she doesn't look like that scumbag Ray. She looks exactly like Lisa. And Lisa knows that! Lisa comes over all the time with her husband Michael and their son, Jeremy. And Shay knows that Lisa is her biological mom.

 I still remember the one day Shay came home from school and demanded red hair. Like mine. She wanted red hair. I didn't give in at first, but I don't know, SIX FUCKING MONTHS OF HER BEGGING AND BEGGING, I finally gave in. She wanted my color. Not no My Little Mermaid shit. I still have a lot of red in my hair. I'm lucky. I haven't gone bald or went grey. So the hair girl person matched the color, made it a little more younger, and dyed Shay's hair. Her long-ass hair that goes to her waist. I had to learn how to braid. Fuck it's hard.

As we were watching one of many short films, Shay cuddled up next to me. Not in a good way. Almost like in a sad pout way. 

"Honey what's wrong?" I asked. She looked up at me with tears in her eyes.

"You and Daddy have been fighting, haven't you?" Fuck, she knew.As I sighed, I answered.

"So you hear us?"

"One time is was about you not liking your body, others it's because Daddy doesn't give you enough attention. It's almost every night!"

"But it's never about you!" I said stroking her cheek. She stood up in anger.

"I fucking know that, dad!" That was the first time she ever swore at me. It kinda scared me. "But it's been happening for months! You guys rarely kiss, you barley talk because what ever you say makes each other triggered, where the hell is the make-up sex?"

"Excuse me?" I felt kinda embarrassed.

"That's your only hope! When daddy comes home, make him feel loved. Make him feel happy again like how you guys were a year ago. I don't care if I hear you two going at it, just don't do it against the wall like you guys did that one time. Me and Uno were scared to death!" She ran upstairs, not to cry, but to leave me alone with my thoughts. 

Did I just get a love lesson from my 12 year old daughter? Yes, yes I did. Fuck I'm proud of her!

A few moments later, Ryland walks in with his coat in his arms. I get up and take the jacket and hang it up for him. He looked at me confused.

"Okay, we've both been assholes lately. Mostly me. I don't want us to have to break up, I don't want to lose Shay and I think you feel the same. I just want to fall in love with you all over again." Ryland smirked and pulled me into a kiss. It felt so good to have the lips I love on mine again. He pulled back t talk.

"Wait, what about Shay? Won't she hear us?"

"She doesn't care, she like just told be to have sex with you!"

"She needs therapy, yours or mine?" I smile as I pull her into a kiss once again. We walked upstairs, not once breaking the kiss. We get into our room and I throw him on the bed. I get on top of him as we continue to kiss. We start taking each others clothes as we still make out. He grabs my wrists and moves me so I'm underneath. He starts playing with my hair as we are still kissing. I wrapped my arms around his thighs, and start to rock him. I feel his skin start to feel sticky, as he's rubbing up against me. He pulled away to stare at my face. 

"What's wrong?" I asked rubbing his cheek with my thumb.

"I don't really want to do much tonight, and I'm starting to get a headache." He looked sad. I didn't know why.

"No, I know you. There's something you're not telling me. Please? Come on, tell me.." He looked away and looked out the window.

"You know my cousin, Willow?" He said not looking at me.

"The 16 year old? Yeah."

"I have a feeling something's wrong. I don't know. I think I'm going crazy." But what we didn't know is that he wasn't going crazy. Willow was always shy, and always kept to herself. I remember it broke Ryland's family's hearts, because she was diagnosed with stage three ovarian cancer at 14. She was cancer free for 6 months, and she had a huge party. But, it came back two weeks before she died. It hurt everyone. But we all knew she wasn't suffering anymore. SHe always said she didn't want a funeral. She wanted a party. A huge party. And that's what she got...