Imperfect *Lashton*

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Ashton's POV

He was touching me.

He was frickin touching me.

I know he only touched my face because he was worried for me but I couldn't help melting into his touch.

Luke was so close to me.

I blushed, just thinking about it.

"Why are you blushing?" Calum asked as he opened the front door and walked in.

"I'm not." I mumbled quietly, blushing even more.

"You obviously are." Calum looked at me then he smirked.

"What?" I asked. "Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Like what?" Calum asked, playing dumb. "Does it have something to do with Luke?"

I blushed deeply.

"N-no." I stuttered back.

"Aww, Ashton has a cwush!" Calum sang.

"No, I don't." I replied in a small voice.

"He does?" Mrs Hood entered the living room with a wide grin.

"Is it Luke? He's a sweet boy."

"No, I don't." I tried to argue but Calum and Mrs Hood just smirked knowingly.

God, why did I have to be so obvious?

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I stared at my reflection.

Ugly.

So ugly.

Worthless.

Luke will never love someone like you.

Fat.

A waste of space.

Tears ran down my face.

"So fat." I muttered angrily as I pulled at the skin on my stomach.

"Ugly." I let out a loud sob as I continued to stare at myself in the mirror.

I stopped sobbing, silent tears still ran down my face. My eyes were red. My hair was a mess.

Why did I have to be so ugly?

Why did I have to be so fat?

I sniffed.

Why did I have to be so imperfect?

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I entered school, my head hanging low.

My stomach was twisted in knots. It hurt so bad but I didn't want Calum's mum to worry so I didn't tell her and went to school anyway.

I haven't eaten in a few days. The most I had was that spoonful of cereal.

I placed all my books in my bag and headed off to class.

"Hey, Ash." The beautiful blonde boy appeared, putting an arm around me.

"Hey, Luke." I replied in a small voice.

His contagious grin immediately dropped.

"Are you alright? Are you sick? I'll call the ambulance."

"Luke!" I interrupted his rambling. "I'm fine." I lied.

"Okay, sorry. If you don't feel well, just tell me, okay? I'll take care of you." Luke smiled his gorgeous smile and I blushed deeply.

"Okay." I replied softly.