i've been lying | phan

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phil's pov;

We walk into our office and sit down in our chairs. 'Wait, shall I get us some Ribena?' I ask. Dan nods. 'Okay, be right back.' I say, as I walk out of the room, into our colourful hallway.
Once I walk back into the office I see Dan just staring.
He does that sometimes; just sit and stare, contemplate life, just feel bad in general.
'Hey, Dan' I chime in, 'everything okay?'.
'What? Oh, yeah sure.'
'You know you can talk to me if there's something bothering you.
You know that right?' I ask him.
'Yeah, thanks Phil' Dan smiles.
I grin back.
'So, what video are we starting with?' I ask.
'I was thinking we could start with the Trivia game?' Dan answers. 'Also, maybe it'd be a cool idea to make it a Dan vs Phil?' he says.
(shoutout to the person on twitter who came up with that lol thanks)
'Yeah, sounds great! I can't believe we didn't think of that before.' I laugh.
'How would that work?' I ask Dan.
'I guess the person who gets the least amount of questions wrong wins and gets a sticker on board?' he answers.
I nod, 'Seems like a plan to me.' I say.

~ le little time skip to somewhere in the video making because lol im a bad writer and i cant write the process of making a video lmao dont hate me~

Halfway through the video we decided that it would be a great idea to turn up the shocks so they were way more intense.
Why?
Why are we stupid?
It was quite painful but manageable.
At one point it was set quite high and I could see Dan wince in pain.
I paused my laughing.
'Dan? Are you okay?' I ask.
'Dan?'
'What? Oh yeah, I'm fine, it just hurts a bit.' he tries to smile his pain away.
I could see the pain in his eyes and in the way he was acting in general.
'Dan. I won't allow this. This was all meant for fun but you're in pain. I don't want to see you in pain.'
Wait.
Did I just say that?
I feel so stupid.
What does Dan think?
Instead of looking at me like I'm a complete psycho, Dan smiles at me.
'Thanks Phil, I don't know though. We promised them to play the game like this, we can't back out now can we?' he says.
'Yeah but I hate seeing you in pain Dan, whether it's mentally or physically, I don't want to see you getting hurt. You're my best friend.'
Dan looks away.
'Sorry. Did I make you feel uncomfortable?' I ask quietly.
'No, thanks. Sorry for being such a bother sometimes. I always have to ruin things.' he says.
I'm confused.
'Ruin things?' I ask. 'What do you mean?'.
'Just.. I don't know, you seemed so eager to play this and just because of the fact that I'm in pain, we have to play it differently from what we had planned and now I just feel like I'm letting everyone down.' Dan blurts out.
'Dan! You're not ruining anything!' I say, standing up and turning off the camera.
'What are you doing?' Dan asks, obviously confused.
'We are going to have lunch because we need to cheer up, you need some fresh air. C'mon.' I say.
Dan looks confused but stands up and walks to his room to get his shoes anyway.
Once we've done our fringecheck and we've put on our shoes and coats, we walk out of the door.
London is beautiful. Being someone who grew up in the North where everything is way more calm, this is a nice, quick paced place with lots of people and lots of things to do. I like it here. I also love the fact that everything is covered in a tiny layer of snow which gives it all a little magic glow.
(i live in the netherlands and wtf it has snowed again? its fucking february, sort your shit out earth)
We walk into a cafe and order lunch.
We talk a bit. Just about life, nothing too serious, nothing work related, nothing which could cause any tension.
And slowly, I see that a smile is working its way back onto Dan's face.
Once we've both finished our sandwich and drink, we pay and walk out of the cafe.
I turn right but Dan tugs my sleeve.
Confused, I look at him.
'Shall we walk to the park? I kind of want to get some new pictures.' Dan smiles.
'Sure.' I grin, it's nice to see Dan get excited about small things like going to the park.
He can be so down sometimes, and I hate seeing him sad, that's why I always try to make him smile.
That's my mission.
We walk through the park. I see beautiful plants, colourful flowers and graceful swans making their way through huddles of parents with their children, trying to give them some bread.
It's peaceful here.
It's pretty.
'Phil! Wait! Stop! I want to get a picture of this one!' Dan yelps.
He walks up to a patch of roses. They are all pretty colours like red, pink and yellow, exept for one somewhere on the side. It's so dark red that it's almost black. And it's beautiful.
Dan walks up to it and gets his phone ready.
I don't know how but he has always had this talents for taking nice photos.
I can see him getting upclose and focussing the camera on the pretty thing. And then.. *click* he takes the picture.
He stands back up again and looks at the finished thing, he looks pretty content with it; he has a slight smile on his face.
He proceeds to walk towards the path and then walk to another patch of flowers.
I quickly pick the rose that Dan just photographed and take off the stem. I put the rest in the pocket of my coat.

~le time skip ; basically they both take some more pictures and then walk home lol i dont want to get repetitive~

We walk into our apartment and knock of all the snow off of our shoes. As soon as we walk into the lounge, I walk towards the radiator and press my hands onto it.
Dan looks at me as if I've gone completely mental.
'What?' I ask innocently.
Dan rolls his eyes, laughs and walks away into the kitchen.
After about five minutes of me hugging the radiator as if my life depends on it, I also walked into the kitchen.
'What's cookin' good lookin'?' I joke.
Dan almost chokes and turns around.
'What? I was joking.' I laugh.
Dan starts laughing too, but it doesn't completely reach his eyes.
'But for real, what are w having for dinner?' I ask.
It was quite late when we got back from the park.
'Um, I dunno, we could make some pasta I guess?' Dan asks.
'Sure, let's get cracking.' I respond, and grab some spaghetti from the cupboard.
Dan eagerly starts making the sauce.
His tongue is poking out of the corner of his mouth and his hair is all curly because of the steam in the kitchen.
He has a small spark in his dark, copper eyes.

I think this is the day I've officially fallen for Dan Howell.

okay, this was a shit and also long (1300+ words) chapter. it was pretty useless but hey ho, i hope u enjoyed anyway.
thank you for the response on the last chapter, i got some really lovely dms on twitter :).
like i said in last chapter, shit will happen soon don't worry. i actually already wanted to introduce something plot twisting in this chapter but then i wrote this and i dont want to make this chapter any longer lol. anyway, bye lads, take care.

'normalness leads to sadness.'