i've been lying | phan

f i v e

(slight mention of blood, nothing bad but quick warning in case you absolutely hate it:) )

phil's pov;

I feel horrible. I've been crying for ages and I don't want to see Dan.
I walk to the bathroom to get ready for bed and as I walk through the hallway back to my own room, I hear Dan yelling my name.

I sigh.

I don't want to talk to him because every time I see him I feel all warm and fussy and like all in the world is good, but I shouldn't feel like that.

I open his door anyway and poke my head in.

Dan asks me if I'm okay and I lie. Then, I leave and go to my room with the excuse that I need sleep.

Before actually turning off my lights I decide to answer some questions on 'Who Said So?'.

There are some basics like;

'Would you ever consider getting your ears pierced?'

and

'What is your favourite boardgame?'

Pretty basic if you ask me, I answer them anyway.
But there is one that catches my eye;

'Do you have a crush on Dan?'

The whole point of this is to be honest, so I sigh and reply with a simple 'yes'.

As soon as I click 'answer' my heart drops and I regret it.

I didn't click 'answer anonymously'.

I feel like I can't breathe and like the whole world is spinning and crumbling around me.

'It's not that bad' I tell myself, 'they might not even see that you didn't do it anonymously.'

Then I hear some *ping* noises coming from Dan's room.

After about one minute, Dan's bedroom door opens and footsteps come my way. The door swings open and Dan is standing in my room.

'What the fuck Phil?!'

It was Dan.

Dan had asked the question.

He knew.

'Dan, I- I can explain..!' I try to tell him but all of a sudden his eyes are filled with something more horrible than anger, rage or disappointment; it's hate.

He walks up to me and punches me.

Not once, not twice, but for 20 consecutive minutes.

Blood is coming out of my nose, my lip and there's even some flowing out of my ear onto my pale skin like the blood of a wounded wolf in the snow.

It's everywhere.

It's mixed with my tears and Dan's sweat.

Finally Dan stops and stands up straight.

I look up at him, carefully.
I'm scared he'll hit me again, but instead he brushes his hair down, takes a deep breath and turns around.

He stops right in front of the door and turns back at me; 'I think it's better if I leave for a while.' he states.

He closes the door and after about 10 minutes I hear him wheel a suitcase through the hallway and leave the house.

I break down.

I didn't think he'd actually leave.

Why did this happen?

Why am I a massive failure?

Why did I have to do this?

What do I do know?

I can't keep love around, I always fail.

I hate myself.

I don't even know where Dan is going or if he is safe.

hello lads, this was a very very short chapter bUt i think i'm going draft some chapters. i don't want this fic to have 10 chapters and then be over, so that's why i'm doing some shorter ones filled with some drama now.
anyways, i hope you're kind of enjoying this idk i kind of feel like this is flopping massively but okay, let me know if you like reading this please lol.
also you can vote if you want to, idk but it means a lot to me:)
gotta blast, happy weekend pals
also i havent done a spelling check yet soz xo

(also, dan and phil in matching adidas jackets is my death?)

'you were
beautiful
like a rose
but
stung when i
got close'