It Was Always You

Chapter 5: Unexpected Change

Graduation was fastly approaching and I had been avoiding Aaron and all of my friends. I still hadn't made a decision on what I was going to do, but I needed to think quick. Oh shit! I forgot about the speech! Sigh, just another thing to add to the list of stress fulfilling things in my life. A familiar face suddenly appeared in front of me and I frowned.

"What do you want L.Joe-ssi?"

He glared, "Look, you've been hanging around Mark a lot, and he has informed me that I need to at least try to tolerate you if I still wanted him in my squad." Sighing, "Seeing as if I lose him, I lose a lot of followers, I decided 'Fuck it,' so here I am."

"I can see that," I smiled smugly, "So have you come to apologize or just report that you'll at least try to be nice from now on?"

"Like I would apologize for things you obviously deserved," He chuckled and walked away.

I frowned again and muttered under my breath, "Asshole."

Well, that was interesting...I walked towards the library, as Mark and I had volunteered to work there during our free period. It was easy to see that I had developed an attachment to Mark after that day, and had been spending more time with him than my friends. Walking in I saw all my friends, and surprisingly my brother, alongside Mark all lined up. Couldn't avoid them forever. I sighed. I glanced at the group and noticed that Aaron wasn't there. Figures...why does this continue to hurt??

"Mark, I'm not late right?"

He shuffled awkwardly around my friends, "Uh, no, not at all."

As I lined up next to him, the librarians soon came and handed us our assignments. Luckily I was paired with my brother and we were out collecting books, so nowhere near any of the people I was trying to avoid, save Mark. I sighed heading out with an empty cart.

"Was it your idea?"

"Noona, you can't avoid them forever. You have to tell them at some point that you're leaving after graduation. Especially Aaron and Mark."

"First off, I told Mark."

"You did?" He asked shocked.

"Yes, and second off I don't owe Aaron anything. He doesn't love me, I got it. If I avoid him, then he'll never know that I love him. That's the plan. Okay?"I pushed the cart to a classroom collecting books from students.

"(Y/N)," Ren mumbled.

After I came out, and we were moving on I paused. "What is it exactly that you want me to do?" I hardly even know what I am supposed to do.

"Confess."

I froze, "Mwo?" I whipped around fast, "N-no, I can't."

"(Y/N), you were already hurt, but if you don't confess to everyone how you feel you are only hurting yourself even more. When you leave, you have a chance to live your dream and forget the pain, but for now, you have to be strong and face it head on."

I looked down. I didn't dare to speak. He's right....why is he always right...Tears soon fell, and as the droplets hit the floor, I was embraced by my brother. I squeezed back so tight as if he would just disappear. After what felt like hours of crying, I spoke, just barely above a whisper.

"Do you think that I am strong enough?"

Ren was surprised by the question, "Of course, and if you aren't, then lean on me for support.

We finally let of each other, and he wiped my tears away. I managed a smile, and we continued till the cart was full of returned books. We headed back to the library, where everyone else had been waiting for our return. I bowed in apology for taking so long, but the librarians only thanked us all and dismissed us. I looked towards my friends and knew that I had to tell them soon that I was leaving. I'll wait till lunch, maybe I'll tell Aaron too. Maybe.