The bus stopped near my house. I got down, thinking about the kiss over-and-over again. He has feelings for me even though I was nasty to him. It was too soon to fall for anyone, especially what happened to Bradley. No one knew about the real story of what happened to him except me and her. We never talked about it. Not even one single soul was being told. Then my mind keeps bringing back to Tomi. Why must he kissed me? It will make things worse.
I went straight to my working room (a room to do projects/to paint for me) after I got into my house. I closed the door and took out a 24x36 blank canvas and got my paint set out placed it on my table. I knew what I was going to draw. I picked up my brush and dipped it in paint and started to paint but my hands were deceiving me and were not cooperating with my brain. The kiss kept running in my mind. Screw this painting. I washed the palette and the brush and went to bed.
The next morning, I woke up at 9a.m. I was late to school. I showered quickly and changed into my clothes and ran to school. Uh-oh. I'm late for English class. Again. I knocked the door before entering the class and Mr. Smith was rather angry this time around. "Miss Brook, you're late, again for the second time in just a week. I have no choice, but to put you into detention, again." I gave him a look and took a seat. I have no idea what Mr. Smith was teaching as the stupid kiss was still in my mind. Should I let Tomi in? Do I have feelings for him? What if Tomi ends up being like Brad because of me?
I got up and left the class. "Miss Brook, class is not over yet." "But it is for me, and if you do give me hundreds of detention, I won't give two shit about it as well you know, I'm not scared of you. Put me to jail, for all I care. The world is a living hell already," I looked straight into his eyes, gave him an evil smile and left.
I have to talk to Tomi. About everything. If he wanted something more, he was on his own for the Biology project. Tomi's class ended and when he got out of the class, he was surprised to see me. "Well, isn't it a surprise seeing Seline here?" "Tomi, I want to talk to you. Privately." Tomi thought I was kidding at first, but then he noticed the serious look on my face and agreed politely.
"Tomi.. about the kiss.." I began. "I can't be with you. I can't be with anyone else. I was with someone else until something tragic happened to him. Even if I want to be with you, you will end up regretting it and besides, I'm a broken soul. No one can fix something that is broken." Tomi placed his hands on my cheek and said, "Seline, I don't care how broken you are. Your soul may be scattered into million of pieces, but listen to me. I will fix you. I will pick up every little pieces and put them back, even if they're not perfect like it used to, it will be something more." I got lost into his eyes. His blue eyes were just so amazing. "Hey.. it's fine you know, whatever happened to your 'someone' and you think it would happened to me, let it be. I just want to be with you. I can see love inside your eyes. I don't know why, but I feel that you are my one." Tears rolled down and wet my cheek. He took his thumb and wipe it away.
"That's the problem Tomi, you don't know what happened to that 'someone'," I said. Tomi looked at me and say, "Tell me." "I can't, you'll be late for class." Tomi checked his watch. "It's Mathematics. I think Mrs Holmes wouldn't mind and besides, if I go there now, I will still be late, so we can just talk, if you want." He smiled. I took a deep breathe and started.
